::My Memory Lane::

Manila Trip

2011-10-11T23:48:00.004+08:00

Yes, I am in Manila, Philippines.. A country that I have no good feelings ever since the HK tourists got held hostage by the crazy man.. Never crossed my mind before that I will be travelling alone here one day..
But I did it.. All by myself.. after 6 months in my new company.. Amazing yah..

What and how I feel about this place? A country with massive traffic jams, F1 cab drivers who likes honking.. But, good hospitality I can say..

Nice room with excellent service... A hotel that have attached shopping malls.. See the toiletries.. complete setting...

So, a little to update... Been in this regional post for the past 6 months.. I was glad to have this offer.. This job really gets me explore SEA countries like Vietnam, Kuala Lumpur, Jakarta, Manila and Thailand... Learning to be independent and getting used to sleeping alone in hotel rooms, taking flights, eating alone and taking good care of myself... etc and etc....

Missing my lil Candice now... She is getting more and more smart each day.. A pretty fast young learner.. At 23 months now.. She is able to sing Twinkle little stars, Barney song all by herself.. Not forgetting ABCs full song which we sing to her every night to tuck her in bed.. Although she can be quite pampered and spoilt, she is considered easy to handle.. at least she understands our language now..
I hope she is sleeping well tonight.. Baby, wait for mummy to be back on Thursday.. Muackz.. Good night..

Candice down with flu!!

2011-03-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

Not easy to take care of sickly Candice but I believe I can do it!! Though she is super cranky, she is still quite easy to get pacified.

Anyway, I hope she gets well soon.. She is such a lovely baby and my little sweet darling..

I am going jogging tomorrow. Just wanna kick start my next resolution.. Iose weight!!!

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What the fuck is Marriage?

2011-02-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

Am I the one who is being petty or we just cant talk nicely to each other?

I hate this marriage. He is a good daddy but I can't agree that he is a good and loving Hubby. He is totally attentive to Candice, showering all his love and forgetting that I am the one who brought Candice to this world. I am so sad, utterly sad.

I fought so hard to have him for my rest of the life but I somehow regretted my decision. But I cannot deny that he really give all his best to this family. Am I a loser? So contradictory.

I am unhappy. I am blessed with a complete family, cute and smart daughter. Cannot ask for more. I think I should just keep quiet and not talk.

Where has that nice and easy going husband gone to? Where is that husband who will listen to my nonsense and not full of sarcasm? Why can't we be like other couples who know at least what is respect?

I am like a trapped bird in the cage. I find no one to talk to. I can't even talk freely. I can't be stupid in front of him. I can't make mistakes in front of him. I have to be an obedient wife. I have to be nice to him and not go against him.

Seeing those wedding pictures made me even sad because we were once so happy and close. Now we have drifted apart. He always said the way he show love is by different action which i don't even realize. I am indeed an insensitive wife. Now I can only cry silently and carry on my life. I am learning to be independent so we no need any interaction. Why must this bother me?

At this stage, I think we no need to plan for second one. I find that we are miles apart and I don't understand him at all. We been living together but I just can't get used to his habits. I surrender.

Perhaps it was me who made this marriage failed. I blamed myself for being hot tempered, stupid and make mistakes easily. I am a bad wife who don't even know to give me all my affection. I am a failure. So does the marriage.

First Entry for Year 2011

2011-01-03T01:47:00.001+08:00

Year 2010 passed damn fast!! That's because my life have Candice!! Heehee... All right.. My entry of the day shall be setting my new year resolutions!!

1. Shed off my 10kg which followed me ever since Candice is born.
2. Stop procrastinating over my job
3. Stop being a fond of nagging mummy, wife and daughter.
4. Get my study room done up.
5. Sleep early
6. Try to put on sunblock everyday before leaving home
7. Take care of my skin more
8. More patient to Candice
9. Cook more for family
10. Go gym at least once a week
11. Meet up with my friends more.
12. Be more gracious
13. Plan for short getaway

Etc......

Yeah yeah.. So much.. I hope by next year comes.. I can strike off all.

Wahaha...

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I am Unhappy!

2010-12-30T14:18:00.002+08:00

I am super unhappy in my job. Anyone that heard me can just hire me?? The person who I am working with really loves to play tai-chi. I really cannot stand him when it is supposed to be his job yet still I need to complete for him. Do I look like those shit-clearing cleaners? Most made me feel sucky was my boss supported him like he is Andy Lau.. Damn sian.. Worship like he is Guan Er Ge.. Haiz.. How to survive in this unfair world? How I wish I can just stay at home and be a tai-tai so I no need to see the ugly side of humans.

Nowadays, hubby addicted to Poker Stars. At first it really does not bother me, now I think this addiction should not carry on. He simply slammed his butt in front of that PC once he got back home and be a professional poker star. He thought what? Can earn money out of this? Jasmine wedding is just another 10 days and he is still procastinating over the completion of the video. WTH. I already can imagine seeing him not need to sleep and just to rush her wedding video out the night before their wedding day.

When I just remind him, he says I am too naggy and give me his classic black face. I swear I will just sit and see how he is going to get that video out eventually. Anyway, is him who gotta fail them and not me. Who ask him initiated to help out at first. If he cannot do it, then don't commit.

Haiz. Unhappy.. Marriage really not easy.. Have to really willing to compromise and accomodate.. Hope every couple can do that..

Swimming Session

2010-12-01T01:27:00.001+08:00

Today went off early from work to bring Candice for a swim at Harbourfront.

Getting ready to set off but the weather is not co-operative. Drizzling caused the traffic jam while on d way there.

I think she already outgrown the tub, now she like doing spa, enjoying immersed in water while listening to the nursery rhythms.

Candice surprised me today when I asked her to bring numbers for me. She is able to recognize 1 and 3, which is super amazing. She is like a high absorbent sponge, whatever we tell her she will absorb.

She never fail to make my day a wonderful one.

Thank you bao bei..

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Sick and Tired

2010-11-29T23:44:00.007+08:00

Yes, am sick. Down with bad cough and sore throat. The withdrawal of addiction. Affecting my voice to be super hoarse now.

Stayed at home the whole day to take care of Candice and to nurse my sickness. Quite pissed off with my hubby because he did not spare a thought of me as a sickly mother. He went back home happily and enjoyed life again yah. I don't know, really.. I always get super paranoid when he always loves to go home without me. I think he just love his computer too much rather than accompany Candice and me. Hate it!

Anyway, though the cough is still with me, my headache has gone away to Far Far Away land. Yeah, at least good news for me. I love the days that I do not have to report to work. I hate to go back office, I hate to see that TM, I hate to see fake people like his C, and I hate endless work. I really hope that I need not go on such life. Please, get me a better job.

Ok, in order to lighten my mood. Candice latest development is identifying shapes!!! Oval, circle, triangle, star, square and rectangle. Already she can identify without sweat. My god.. really smart.. Nowadays kids are really very smart. Heard from a friend that at one year old, this super smart kid already knows how to speak in full sentences. Kudos..

Posted her video as below. I only have videos of oval and star because she always made taking her videos difficult..

Gotta sleep soon. Tata.... I wonder when will be my next post..

$$$

2010-10-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, I regretted ttm that I was too late for booking the event room in the sports complex. Shit man. Now have to spend another bomb for Candice first birthday bash.

When I saw hub paying his school fees of another 4k, I started to get real worried and scared. He is like paying his debts off by nearly 50% of his salary!! Very unhealthy sum. I really feel helpless at this point because our savings are not growing anymore.

I know he himself is stressed so I decided not to nag further. Is up to him but I can't stop myself from thinking the future. Everyone around us wanted me to faster have our second baby. But, I don't even dare to think of it. The situation now is very bad and all I can do now is to save every cent I have.

Vexed.......

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Candice starts to mimic everyone!

2010-09-18T00:55:00.007+08:00

A video of her saying lai lai lai after her yiyi..

Getting smarter everyday and learning things in a astonishment rate. Nowadays, the babies are getting more and more smart. She will try saying things after us and mimic us. Hus been telling her to say daddy.. She did abruptly sound out the word daddy.. yet not that consistent and clear.. Shall wait patiently for the day she calls mummy out.. Heehee.. Hope that day will come soon..

Also, she is showing her intelligence to us day by day. She clearly knows who she can bully and who she is scare of. Another amazing thing is, she will give you an ultimate pitiful look when she desire something she cannot get. And by the look, she will ask for help and finally we will almost without fail give in to her.

Pretty babe in action.. She is damn chio right? Hahaha... I really love her to the max.. I will die the week after next.. I am gotta miss her when I go India.. Haiz..

Anyway, I sort of not looking forward to the trip. Instead, I am feeling scared and tensed over the whole trip. Just wish me luck. And hope I can overcome the culture shock.

Tata.. time to sleep with Candice.. I am like a bolster.

Damn pissed off...!!!!!

2010-09-15T12:48:00.004+08:00

I am damn pissed off with my job! **shout out loud**

I just want to post it because I am just damn pissed. With the accumulating and incoming work made me feel so frustrated and low. I think because of my "auntie visit" that I feel super moody. I think the only way to perk me up is to bring Candice to me now...!!!!!! Awww.. I just miss her so muchie.. Why can't I be a SAHM???

Anyway, the reasons why I can't be SAHM are :

1. Whenever I open my mail box, there are only bills..
2. I cannot stay idle for long.. Very cheap right?
3. I need financial freedom.. Cos my husband is a chauvinist..

So, this is my little babe....

Title-less

2010-09-11T02:58:00.004+08:00

So bored. I just wanna write.

All right. Candice Chow already 10 months old. Counting down to her first birthday. We will be celebrating at Singapore Poly Guild House, one of their function room. Am thinking of a superb birthday party theme. How about purple and silver? Scropios favourite colours, I suppose.

Am thinking of getting a photographer for that day. I totally regretted for not hiring one for Candice first month party. But, that is also because I am too fat to fit myself into the picture. My god, until now still the same. I wonder now is it too late to start my diet regime.

Anyway, lil Candice already do few stunts which I feel is amazing. Hahaha.. Proud mummy..

1. Eat Mac fries and munch like a 1 year old with teeth (Her lil whites are still not out yet.)
2. Stand astonishly long periods with support of course. I think on her own, she can stand for a few secs.
3. She will blurt out sounds like, burrr, babaabaa, dadadada, maamaaa, etc..
4. She clearly knows how to wave bye bye and give a kiss.
5. She is a kpo baby and will climb to us when we are playing with our phones.
6. She will start dancing when she hears music. Dance as in putting her hands in the air and waves with the music.

Am going India for training soon. I know I will miss her. I hope the training can end early so to come back on the friday night instead. I cannot miss to not spend my weekends with her.

She is really my sweetie. I love her.

Something about work

2010-07-20T00:33:00.001+08:00

I am trying to work out a single pack zinc rich primer with 96% zinc content on dry film.

However, why must I? Why am I working on it when I am not in technical department? Why am I titled as QC & Purchasing Assistant Manager?

When I meet suppliers, they always say is a weird combination. I wonder are they too polite. I was given this position because my technical knowledge is vague. Is shallow..
Yaz.. Right.. So if that's the case.. Why should I bother to work on the formulating??

Yes right.. I thought it through.. Instead of continuing to do my search.. I am heading to bed..

Nightz peeps..

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Rainy boring Sunday

2010-07-18T21:53:00.000+08:00

Stayed home whole day. Thanks for the weather. Though is cooling, but made my Sunday so restless.

Oh yah. Updates for your latest toys. Mummy got her bonus so brought the play area for safety reasons.

With the colourful balls..

Mummy playing with you at the play area..

This is from your granny. She knew that you enjoyed the rocking so without hesitation, she paid for it. So fortunate of you. Heeheez.. I want to thank my mummy to be so supportive at times.

Sianz.. I am feeling the Monday blues already.. Hahaz..

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Meaningless Entry

2010-07-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

Yes, bored. Lucky Candice is with me. Or else, really nothing to look forward to for this weekend.

I brought Candice to Jurong Point last night. Hubby not around with us because of his lesson and office gathering.

Taken these after work.. She is so adorable right? She always want us to carry her once we come home from work.

Talking about office gathering, nowadays so many people left my company. People like Iv, Johnson, Zahir, Peachy.. Don't know why, I felt less motivated at work and everything seem not at the right way. Been this company for 5 years, I can say that my boss is nice to me, but don't know why work is not fulfilling enough.

I have lots of difficulties when comes to delegating work and sometimes communication is a problem.

I wonder how long I can continue in this way. So sian.. I really want to move on but I know now is not the right time.

Anyway, blogging at my MIL place. Candice is sleeping after her milk. She is now drinking 220-240 ml and she loves sweet potatoes and bananas.

I am so bored. These days the beer cravings made me drank alone a few times. I miss days when I can chill out. Guess now is only chilling in. Hahaa..

Just took this.. Heehee..

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Hot Hot Day

2010-07-15T00:04:00.005+08:00

Whats wrong with the weather? I been escaping from the hot hot weather by staying indoors, with blasting air con. But still.. I feel so "sticky"... I am so much deprived on cool cool weather... I want to go Genting!!!!!!!

Baby, you are slowly recovering but still your nose is wet. Never hear you coughing already. Although you are extremely sick, the energy you have is always at full bar. Forever so active. You struggled, cried and screamed when daddy feed you the medicine. Haiz.. mummy knows it does not taste good but still have to take for your own good.

Today your BJ uncle is back from his 3 months vacation in Europe. He brought you a Polo Ralph Lauren Purple Polo Tee. Mummy will wash and let you wear soon ok? Sure you will be a little charming babe with that stylish tee.

Your two darling Yiyis are going BKK tomorrow for their short getaway. Hope they will enjoy to the max. I already told them to buy loots for you. I am sure they will. Heehee.. Lets both wait patiently for them to return next week.

You are now sleeping soundly in your yao lan. Mummy also gotta tuck in soon as I am extremely tired after a day of work. Mummy endless work and the politics in office is killing my brain cells. Everytime I will give a thought to find an easier job. But, I need this pay roll to survive. Haiz.. But luckily, whenever I reach home, I will definitely able to temporary forget all troubles faced at work. Heehee.. Thats because of your smile, your laughter, your hugs and your smell...

Good night bao bei.. Muackz..

Mummy just love your sticking out tongue look. Heehee...

Updates

2010-07-13T14:22:00.004+08:00

Yes. Been sometime since I last logged in to at least say hi. I forgotten that I am wanna dedicate this blog to Candice. To update her growth, her development and almost everything. Sorry my dear little precious, I will do it faithfully from now onwards...

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You are already 8 months and able to...
- clap your hands as and when you are happy
- wave bye bye to us whenever we bring you go out from the door
- Say mama.. & mum mum..
- Started crawling
- Eat more texture food
- Peek-a-Boo
- Sitting straight
- High-Five with us
- Know that we are bringing her out and this sure cheer up her day

I adore your smile, laughter and the way you close your eyes and give a cheeky face when eating something nice. My precious cutie.

You are an attention-seeker.
Because you always want us to peek-a-boo with you. And, always scream at us when we are not paying attention at you. When mummy & daddy is in a conversation, you will go blah blah blah.. to interrupt us.

You are a Hyperactive baby.
It seems like your energy is never ending. I always got to play with you till my back aching. I cannot imagine the day you starts walking. I think I have to run around to catch up with you. When mummy carry you, all you did is move around and wriggling non-stop.

You are very mischievous and playful.
Always I will see you grasping on your toy then throw it on the floor. Then, I will see you looking at the object on the floor, waiting for us to pick up for you on your high chair. Naughty girl leh.. Catch attention from us like that.

This is my 8 months girl, Candice Chow.....

Candice is 10 months

2010-06-28T20:29:00.000+08:00

My sweet lil princess is already 10 months. Now as i am typing away. I have her soundly asleep beside me.

I love her smell, her smile, her laughter and her hugs for me.

She is now able to wave bye bye, smile sweetly at strangers, standing by herself with support, clap her hands and dance with music. And, she can self feed very well. She is really my girl. Always make my day a superb one.

I find it amazing when you can eat Mac fries unaided, look absolutely normal when I make you taste chili. I think next time you can be a good gourmet.

I am happy to have you in my life. I really feel blessed with you around. I want to thank god for giving me such a wonderful you.

Latest hair accessory added into your collection.

Mummy with Candice.. You are so cute with the beanie..

Your lunch today. One bad habit of you is the food given to you must be different everyday. You will not eat much if we cook porridge everyday. Very particular on this. *shake head*

Yawn.. Good nightz world..

How????????

2010-02-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

I got difficulties communicating with him........

I am easily irriated by him........

He always never stick to his words.......

Cannot plan in advance with him because he always change his mind last minute.........

I don't know how to get along with him............

I don't feel like talking to him..........

How?????????????

God, give me an answer...........

I am tired..................

Is a sad entry

2010-01-23T04:56:00.000+08:00

I am exhausted but unable to sleep. My focus is on my little cutie who is sleeping soundly beside me.

I think is post natal blues. Making me feeling less loved, ultra sensitive over minor things and easily frustrated.

I just don't know how to spell it out. A moment ago, hus accidentally hit my elbow while carrying Candice. Instead of asking me whether am I hurt, he gave me an irriated response. Abruptly said sorry and gave his total attention to Candice again.

Yes, I am being petty to get jealous over my own daughter. But my elbow really hurts. He just ignored it completely. Not even a word of concern.

After him bringing Candice to me so I could make her sleep, he just ponked his head onto the pillow and started his rthymic snores within secs.

He said I am super sensitive. But how to take as a joke when he said things like I never lay my interest on the dresses his mum brought for Candice.

Haiz... The main problem is he is the one who carried the bag of dresses to his car and not bringing back home for weeks.

Just let me rant here. I just want to make a silent scream. I know it should not be affecting me so much. But I just could not stomach it anymore. Be it I am petty or super difficult to get along, I just want to speak out here.

Because this is my blog!! Argh......!!!!!!!!!!!

Blocked ducts

2010-01-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

Very painful.. Had high fever due to blocked ducts.. I kept on shivering.. And bad body aching.. So sick!!!!!!

Lucky got Mdm Rokiah.. She helped me cleared the ducts with a hot stone..

Breastfeeding so difficult.....

Candice Chow with her pinko tights

2010-01-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.. She is so beautifully dressed up.. wearing the pinky tights.... Home alone with her now.... She is so tamed.. never cry and sleeping soundly...

Emo-ing

2010-01-06T02:11:00.001+08:00

Feeling emo now..

I find myself being less worthwhile. He treats me not as before, and I really miss the period when I was pregnant.

Haiz.....

Only her can lighten my mood now.

Wee Hour

2010-01-05T05:00:00.006+08:00

Now is 5:00 AM.. Guess this is the first time me blogging at this hour.. Indeed an early post for me..

Woke up to pump milk for Candice.. So tiring... I, hereby salute all breastfeeding mothers.. especially those who went all the way to exclusive feeding... They sacrificed their sleep.. freedom.. figure.. and etc.. Although they started regained back their shape faster than non-breastfeeding mothers... They will feel discouragement because now cannot slim down yet... due to eating good food to produce quality milk....

Nowadays because I started exclusively feed Candice.. She started to make a big fuss when we feed from the bottle.. She showed her first rejection last Saturday when I was out to Jurong Point for my new hair cut...

Then came yesterday when I tried again to feed her my EBM from the bottle.. She cried frantically and refused to drink down the milk.. She will pretend to cough and made me thought that I will choke her.. Faint... Very clever move... I ended up giving in to her.. Latched her both sides and she became my little angel again.. Hahaha.. Lame me...

We finally brought Candice to swim at Harbourfront... She is really superb... Started kicking the moment she is put into the tub.. Showing no sign of fear.. Like performing for us when we praised her and giving us her classic "Hao Lian plus yaya" expression..

Signed up 20 lessons for her.. $384 total...

Pictures~~

Tired............... Time for next feed soon......

Bye Bye Year 2009

2009-12-31T18:00:00.004+08:00

Bye Bye Year 2009!!! It has been an eventful year with the arrival of Candice Chow, me getting a summon, hubby's promotion and etc. Upcoming year, my few top resolutions shall be......

1. Blogging more on Candice's growth
2. Lose weight ~ I target to lose 10kg to regain my pre-pregnancy shape!!!!
3. Word hard and strive for the better when I go back to work
4. Minimize my spending and pay credit cards bills on time

Candice Chow is growing fast. She is able to do the following.

1. Make noises when she wants us to switch on her musical cot toy
2. She will also smile when you tease her at her cheeks or tickle her
3. Watch Hi-5 (Other programs no reaction, but Hi-5 will scream and focus longer)
4. Showing her first signs of hunger by suckling her fist.

I stopped wearing her mittens when she is at her 6th week. She loves holding our fingers and it really feels great with the close contact.

Tried out total breastfeeding for the past 2 days because we ran out of the formula. Was tiring but I am happy also that I am able to satisfy her.

This classic picture was taken when she slept more than 3 hours and missed her feed. She screamed when she is super hungry.

Shopping with Candice is always so relaxing and easy. She is always sleeping soundly in her stroller.

We just came back from Paragon and now she is sleeping in her sarong. Today Hus did not follow me to shop because he got dinner with his colleagues. He got his freedom and I got mine.. Heehee..

Maternity leave

2009-12-24T00:26:00.004+08:00

I am enjoying my maternity leave every each day because of the company of my little princess. She is growing well day by day and is easy to take care. I feel proud that she is not a fussy baby and bringing her out now is a breeze.

Some latest pictures taken.

Hus gave me a little surprise during my birthday. He brought me an Iphone. So sweet right? Actually, he been very tolerant towards me because of my mood swings and has been supportive when comes to taking care of Candice. I am glad to have him around and really grateful that he is able to let me be dependent to him.

Anyway, my milk supply is getting better with help of fenugreek and frequent nursing and pumping. Although still not much for storage, I am able to manage feeding Candice with breastmilk throughout a day. I realized sleeping with her really helps in boosting milk supply. Next time, I will try harder.

Candice @ her 6th week

2009-12-11T16:26:00.006+08:00

Time really passed very fast and now we are entering my 6th week maternity leave. Been staying consciously at home to take care of Candice with occasional days-out.

Bringing Candice out is a challenging task because she still cry for milk every 2 hours. Although now she normally sleep quite long in the day, I don't dare to bring her out for more than 3 hours. Her trip to IMM with me and my mum is terrible. Within 5 hours, she cried 2 times for milk and was sleeping all the way. Actually she is quite good, because other than crying out loud for milk, she is very pleasant to be with at all times.

Now at her 6th week, Candice is growing well and started to focus things. Things in red normally catches her attention and she loves to watch her mini fan with LED lights. She is sleeping more in the day, causing me having sleepless nights. She loves people patting her to sleep but I am trying to make her get used to sleep alone in the cot.

I am still breastfeeding. My daily routine is only feeding and pumping. Tiring especially at night because she will wake up 2-3 hours every each feed. Sometimes she can be wide awake till the next feed. Although she is not crying, I cant sleep when she is wide awake at her cot. Always I will put her with me on my bed. She will doze off eventually when she is with me. Think she needs the security.

I am doing this for my routine now. Damn tiring....

1. Preparing a hot water bottle to massage my breasts to encourage better milk flow.

2. Latch Candice on for each breast 20 minutes at least.

3. Use the hot water bottle again to massage my breasts.

4. Pump out residual milk after the latching.

5. Wash the milk bottles and pumps.

Now at least able to pump out 100-120ml for both breasts.

Finally the long awaited letter came. I am asked to go on next Saturday. Feeling uneasy but I just wanna get over it and done with asap.

Motherhood is amazing......

Candice Chow Yee Herng

2009-11-17T11:58:00.003+08:00

Finally settled Candice's birth certificate. Her big name 邹旖恒.. Got a hard time deciding her big name man.. Yesterday went to register her birth certificate with Hus.. Baby bonus also done... Upcoming shall be the baby first month celebration.. Looking forward.. Cos that will be the time for me to gain back my freedom!!!!!

Most likely Candice first month celebration will be host at Boon Lay Raja Restaurant.. But then I am still looking for a better venue.. Any suggestions?

Today managed to pump out about 40ml for both sides.. I am still hoping that my supply can increase to meet bao bei's demand.. I have stopped the Fernugreek pills and tea... Super pek chek.. No point taking because it does not boost my milk supply..

Yesterday got a chance to wash my hair with the white wine.. Actually the smell still not too bad.. But then just feel that is still unclean.. Anyway is good enough.. At least the washing made my hair not greasy anymore...

Today bao bei is already 14 days old.. She is starting to have strong kicks.. And her arms are also strong at struggling.. Started to learn to play with me.. She will smile while talking to her.. super cute..Hahaha.. Trying out the hair accessories on her.. But all too big now for her to wear.... So cute..

Time to do do pumping again.. Sianz....

Day 11 of Confinement

2009-11-14T21:26:00.004+08:00

My dearest bao bei is like a little hamburger now.. so cute.. Till now.. I still not sure if my milk is enough for her.. It seems like every mother will worry this issue.. I am still feeding my hamburger with 40ml of infant formula per feed.. I hope she is getting enough this way..

Anyway.. waking up to feed her every 2-3 hours is my routine now.. Although is tired.. I feel it all worthwhile.. I wonder how long I can breastfeed.. I just feel that the milk I produce is not enough to meet her demand..

Tired.. Parenting is not easy..

Day 7 of Confinement

2009-11-10T22:35:00.003+08:00

Today is my day 7 of confinement and I still not yet feel the breast engorgement.. I wonder why.. I really hope that I can breastfeed till as long as possible.. I just pray that the breast milk will come in tomorrow.

Yesterday managed to take some family pics.. My little princess is so adorable.. Very smart.. know how to choose.. Mummy gave her water.. she pretend to suckle and then spit out all.. haha.. My sweet bao bei..

The malay massage therapist helped me shed off 12kg of my weight.. still another 10kg to go.. The pressing and rubbing really perked me up but painful.. Overall.. I am still satisfied with her service.. I might want to add some more sessions... heehee.. Shall see my budget..

I am glad that my precious angel is healthy and feeding well... Now then I know parenting is really not easy.. We must treat our parents well because they been taking care of us well for the past 20 odd years...

Shall update again..

P/S: Hair super smelly and greasy.. Cannot tahan already

Arrival of Baby Candice

2009-11-08T13:20:00.004+08:00

Finally I got time to sit down and start typing my labour process and also the few days of me and Hus parenthood.. This free time given is all thanks to TMC parentcraft.. Stupid nurses giving us wrong information which caused me and hus into anxiety.. My baby got underfed because of not enough milk supply given and her juandice.... haiz....

Anyway... I went into induction of labour on 3-Nov... Inserted one pill to start contractions on 2nd Nov by Dr Khi around 2pm.. No contractions feeling till the drip is given on 3-Nov..

12pm - Admitted into hospital.. Got shaved and lie on bed of delivery ward to monitor contractions.. No pain and Hus accompanied me throughout... Checked by nurse that I only 2cm dilated..

1am - Given another pill to start contractions.. The midwife that insert the pill is an idiot.. never put jelly.. I pain like hell..

2am - Given a ward.. Super delux because they dont have single bedded.. Hus and I enjoyed the room.. And I got not much pain still..

9am - Went to Dr Khi's clinic for another contractions monitoring again..

10am - Sent down to delivery ward.. Given enezma to clear bowels.. Checked that I only 3cm dilated

1pm - Given drip to strengthen the contractions after water bag burst by Dr Khi.. The leaking of warm fluids made me feel like I am peeing non-stop..

3pm - Contractions coming like every 2 mins.. Super pain.. Like menses pain x100 times... Cannot take it... Nurse asked whether want pain relief.. I faster tell her I want epidural..

5pm - After the epidural.. Pain free but just feel like wanting to clear bowels... The pressure down there is strong... I called the nurse and she checked that I already 9cm dilated.. Woohoo.. I super happy.. Finally...

5 - 7 pm - Was pushed into birth ward for delivery.. I pushed like several reps but no use.. I feel cold due to the epidural side effects and hunger... No strength at all... I cannot take it anymore and asked to call gynae... Baby arrived by vaccum.. I started shivering the moment baby is out due to the epidural..and announce her arrival at 7.06pm..

What a relief that my labour is not that painful.. I only go through like pain when checking dilation and some contractions.. Still bearable.. stitches is totally pain free.. And I am glad I chose Dr Caroline Khi as my gynae.... bit expensive though.. haha...

I named my little princess in the labour ward when everyone was commenting that she looked so sweet.. Her name is Candice.....

Some photos taken:

Because I am on total breast feeding.. I started feeding Candice every 3 hours in the hospital... Pain on my nipples started coming in on the last hospital stay.. Candice suckling became stronger and vigorous.. I was at a loss.. wondering what happened... My nipples became sore.. Went to ask the parentcraft of TMC.. they told me because my milk not enough.. I broke down... Was so sad when they gave and told us to give 20ml of infant formula to supplement her... Now I think back.. is kinda of stupid.. They should tell me that the mature milk will only come in with adequate rest and calm feeling.. But.. they did not mention any about this..

Then we went back home and started taking care of my little princess.... Her jaundice became worse and mum asked Hus to carry her do sun tanning...

Anyway... Candice is in the hospital because of her juandice... Because of me and Hus.. She got level 20 for her juandice... She got no choice but to shower under photo light... See that her cot got nothing but a plastic base... So pitiful man... I hope she can come back to her warm and comfortable cot by tomorrow... Miss her so much......

Anyway.. at the relax side.. I finally started the massage.. The malay lady who massaged me is great... But super painful... Cos I got serious water retention... I am doing the massage everyday... and feeling so shiok aftermath... I hope to keep my relax feeling till Candice is back....

How I wish I can wash my hair.... very dirty.... hahaha... I shall end here and update again when Candice is back....

Upcoming big thing in my life

2009-10-31T00:57:00.003+08:00

Finally after 38 weeks & 3 days, baby princess coming into my life to meet me the first time... She is weighing approximately 3.5kg and Dr Khi said she is too big.. Need to induce labour.. I will be going to her clinic on coming Monday.. Scary.. I am so "gan chiong" now...

Hus & I were both stunned when Dr Khi suggested inducing birth.. Both of us had lots of mixed feeling.. Suddenly I asked myself if I will be a good mummy or am I prepared.. Across this full term pregnancy.. I kept on asking myself but with no answer.. I just kept on hoping that my labour will be a smooth one thats all...

Wait for my good news.. I think my next update will be on baby's pics.. hahaha...

On Leave Officially

2009-10-21T10:14:00.003+08:00

Did I mentioned that I am already on leave?

The reason why I chose to rest at home early?? Cos' work is too tiring.. No choice la.. Staying at home as I got some inconsiderate colleagues..

Been at home for the third day and I am already feeling bored.... And life is so bluey and aimless.. Hahaa.. Lucky yesterday I went Ikea to get stuffs like the baby changing table.. At least leaving my house for a while to receive some fresh air.. But.. Weather is lousy.. Been so humid and warm and I am still sweating like hell.. Carrying a 3kg baby + the aminoic fluid.. The feeling of hotness is even worse than normal human....

Days at home alone is like the time slowly crawling by.. Nothing much I can do except cleaning here and there... Absolutely nothing I can do but just wiping the windows, mopping the floor.. I am already living the housewife life.. Waiting time to crept by and Hus will be back from work..

I realised I cant be a housewife.. Hahaha.. The house is so quiet.. Living in a 110sqm already feel so quiet.. I hate the alone at home feeling... I cannot imagine how people staying terrace houses can "tahan" being at home alone..

Time is slowly approaching to the day I am going into labour.. To countdown, is about 20 days to full term.. I think no need to wait till 20 days I will have to start pushing the baby out, screaming and crying over the pain..Anxiety overwhelmed me to see my little girl.. So, I think all the screaming and crying will be worthwhile...

All right.. Nothing much to write.. I am going to have a nap and decide whether to go Suntec later.. Ciao..

Pregnancy Updates - 36 weeks

2009-10-15T01:54:00.003+08:00

Can you see her eyes, nose and chin?

Stepping into my 36 weeks, I am getting more and more excited about my labour.. Till now.. we not yet got a name for you.. We are still searching for the best of all...

Baby weighing at 2.6-2.8kg.. Haha.. Little fatty bom bom... I am also gaining so much... I think I will have a tough time losing weight..

Anyway.. started my leave as work is too tiring for me.. Don't know why.. Morning sickness came back these few days and my bowel system also quite good.. Also.. I been reading online about labour process and ways for pain relief..

Another 3 weeks......... I shall meet up with my precious soon... Hope I can cope the labour.. the pain... and breast feeding.... Awwww.......

Proceeding to Day 3 without Hus

2009-09-22T01:24:00.007+08:00

Time just seem to crept along and today is already Day 3.

I was glad that a short MSN session was granted since there is no internet connection in his hotel.. Sad to say that Starhub is charging high on the overseas calls also.. Haiz.. Making Hus not able to call me often.. Dear.. I really miss you man...

Yesterday I went back to our love nest to do household chores.. Clear the dust in our room and our laundry.. I thought of taking a nap on our bed but not able to get a chance.. Cos mummy wanna me to accompany them to Orchard.. Sian... Miss my bed so much.. I wonder if Hus also feel the same way..

Had chicken rice at Far East Plaza and window shopped at DFS and Far East.. Thinking of getting another pair of Birkenstock.. But after consideration.. I gave up the idea.. Haha..

Oh ya.. I brought Japan big and juicy apples at Isetan!! The look of the apples is so delicious... The taste is crunchy and yummy.. No wonder the price so expensive.. See the colour and texture already can make people drool.. Will upload the pictures when I got home..

Heehee..

All right.. last thing to update.. I brought a little red Crocs for little princess at IMM... So sweet and striking ya.. Cant wait to see her little feet wearing it.. But mum told me only can start wearing when she is 1 year old..

I shall stop here first.. I am at work now and is starting to get busy.. Sian...

Hus away for a week..

2009-09-21T01:53:00.003+08:00

Hus away for a week for his study trip at Australia, Newcastle. Went off the jetplane yesterday and today considered Day 2 of me being alone..

Came back to my parents place to sleep in.. Cos they worried me being alone at home since I am already 32 weeks pregnant now... I miss Hus.. Really.. Is unbearable without him beside me.. He is always there to listen to my grumbles and accompany me whenever I am moody.. Now he is not around.. I feel so empty.. I think little princess also miss her daddy.. Cos her movements were lesser today.. She is normally very active..

Last Tuesday we went to see Dr Caroline Khi again... Little princess weighing at 1.9kg and is a medium size baby now.. I did not put much weight.. about 1 kg this time.. but still have to control my diet.. Grrr.. I think the fats that I gained will be staying with me for long.. I need to have the determination to shed off those fats man.. Scary..

I started to have some scretch marks on my tummy.. Noticed by my hus... Very sad at first because the red marks looked ugly.. but then now I am slowly adapting to it and try to accept it.. Haiz.. No choice..

Hope time passes faster... and hus will be back by my side...

Lazing at home

2009-08-25T16:02:00.004+08:00

I miss Starbucks Coffee. Craving for it now.

I been skipping work since last friday. Today is the final day lazing at home. I just wanna fully utilise it.

Woke up at around 1pm today. The bed is smelling good and the weather is cooling to laze somemore on bed. Hus was on leave because he got a few job interviews. Good luck to him.

Ordered Mac again. Had Fillet O Fish while playing the FB mahjong. So difficult to win. Sian..

Was full of energy. I went to do laundry. After that, washed the toilet. Now the toilet smelling nice. But I am sweating like the tap with running water. Cooling down myself, I going to bathe.

Yesterday night went Malaysia to pump petrol. From our calculations, we will save about $6 per quarter tank. Hus very excited last night because it was his first driving experience in JB. Me too, feeling abit nervous because he not very experienced. However, everything was fine last night..

Some notes for myself: -

1. Meet up old friends more
2. Eat less junky food
3. Take my vitamin pills, calcium pills and DHA. (All these made me feel like puking.)
4. Drive more
5. Sleep lesser
6. Go exercise

Yes, my legs are swollen and stomach too big to reach my feet too.

Another 76 days to go.. Yipee..

Rainy Day

2009-08-23T01:12:00.007+08:00

Heavy rain now.. Quite sometime since there is such heavy downpour...

My first time driving in such heavy rain.. Abit scary.. Yet another experience earned.. Overall is acceptable.. Just that I am too tensed up which resulted me not checking the side mirrors when I turning into filter lanes..

Just taken bird nest made by MIL... Been having bird nest for 2 months already.. Of course.. my complexion got better... But I hope little princess also will have fair skin and rosy cheeks.. heehee..

Taken yesterday during my visit to Dr Khi.. Not very clear image because I went to clear my bowels.. Damn it.. But able to see her head and backbone..

Little princess weighed 1.3kg now at 28 weeks old. Dr Khi said that she is slightly fat now, with a little tummy.. haha.. time to eat lesser now... I am also gaining about 5kg since last gynae visit.. Total is about 20 kg.. I think I will have difficulties in slimming down later... Faint.. But I told myself.. If I am not going back to my pre-pregnancy size.. I going for slimming centre already.. Cannot tahan.. Pre-pregnancy time already plump.. now even worse.. I been snacking alot like ice cream, cakes and soft drinks.. Time to cease all these activities and focus on healthy food..

I miss sis pei and brother kvn they all.. but because I feel tired to go for the meet ups at her place.. I been missing out alot.. Today they are having texa poker session.. But I missed it again... Sianz..

I brought a baby names book.. Shall see if I can get a nice name for my little princess...

Yipee... Happy..

Supper

2009-08-21T01:37:00.008+08:00

When you are hungry or craving for food at this hour, what immediately come cross your mind?

For me, is Macdelivery.

Because just a dial using your mobile/several clicks online, you can get food. Although it can be unhealthy, yet it is so convenient. Yummy food right at your doorsteps. Why not?

http://www.mcdonalds.com.sg/eatsmart_nutriinfo.html

From the website, you can see the nutritional information. Actually is not quite unhealthy also. As compared to a bowl of fish ball noodles, you can opt for Fillet-O-fish instead. Is going to be about the same amount of calories intake you going to consume anyway.

Anyway, I just ate a Fillet-O-Fish. So fulfilling.

I savour the tangy tar tar sauce with the recent comeback garlic chilli. I enjoy dipping my fries with bits of mayo and garlic chilli. Awesome taste.

There is a period of time where there is no more supply of the garlic chilli. They ceased their traditional chilli sauce and opt to give customers another type of chilli sauce which is not really spicy, but sweet. Tasted abit like KFC chilli sauce..

Personally, I don't like the new chilli sauce. So, I changed my dipping preference... I would dip my fries in curry sauce instead. Hahaha...... Then I will always fight with Hus and see who gets it more... Because he is curry sauce fannatic..

Finally, due to the popular demand, the delicious garlic chilli sauce is back!!!!!!!

Thank you, Macdonalds.

You really know how to make me patronise more.

While hus went to Macdonalds just now, he told me something which I find it funny...
"The people who queued up with me all are big sizes, look like they are over 70kg.."

He really knows how to crack lame jokes... Wahahahaa.....

I am extremely excited over tomorrow's check up with Dr Khi. Cannot wait to meet up with my little princess through Ultrasound scan... I kept wondering how big she is now and whether is she healthy and well fed..

I been having leg cramps and tiredness lately.. These sleepless nights caused me to toss and turn on my bed till wee hours... By the time I eventually got into deep sleep, that irritating alarm will definitely wake me up.. Vexing...

Oh yah, I just brought a Kate Spade Chattanooga Medium Baby / Diaper Bag from ebay.com.sg

I adore it can.. I think I will use it very often after the arrival of little princess... I am lazy to take pictures.. These are taken from the seller...

I am in love with stripes... Awwww... Hahahaa....

It comes with a yellow with red polka dots changing pad and many individual pockets for diapers, bottles and etc... Very organised and easier to locate things, especially when you are carrying a baby.. Another plus point, there is an adjustable interior strap that can be placed over the stroller handle.. Thats so convenient...

I strongly suggest mummys to consider Kate Spade Baby Bag....

Wide Awake

2009-08-20T02:36:00.003+08:00

Tossing and turning.. I am trying my best to sleep.. But till now.. my eyes are still not tired.. Maybe because I dozed off while watching TV just now..

I was addicted reading www.taxidiary.blogspot.com

This blog address is by a Singaporean with a PHD, but driving a taxi for to earn for a living now. He wrote about his daily experience with his customers. Very interesting and his entries reflected Singaporeans' characteristics and daily happenings.

I wonder if he will go back to his research sector or go into teaching if there is an opportunity. I thought lecturers earn quite hefty sum, especially University since is in demand. Personally, I feel that definitely being a taxi driver is not an easy job. Since day 1 I went into Polytechnic to study for my Diploma course, I already knew that research job will not last. That is why I chose to work in Quality Control and Assurance Department since the day I stepped into working life.

A manufacturing company can do without research but cannot do without quality control and assurance. When the company is facing downturn, there is no need to have researchers already to develop new products. My management always tell me to find ways for cost effectiveness of our products, improving quality and maintaining the standard of the products. They seldom talk about development of new products like competitors having paint that reflect light, Teflon coatings, conductive coatings, fire retardent coatings and etc. Sometimes when I watch Discovery channel, I got fastinated with the new technology coming up from Europe. They are really good researchers man.

Actually, being a chemist, I really enjoyed what I am doing now. My job scope is to help company to save money without sacrificing the quality of my products. I love to work on reprocessing of old stocks and improving the products. I feel the challenge when trouble shooting problems we face daily. I know I will miss my job during my 16 weeks materity leave. And, my fellow colleagues will also miss me too. Hahaha...

Ok, I think is time to tuck in and sleep. Hus already on bed, sleeping like a log. Hope I can wake up on time tomorrow.

Unhappy

2009-08-16T23:37:00.007+08:00

I been feeling unhappy these days.

Work like boring. And I find that people in my company are extremely difficult to get along. Especially my so-called superior. Actually, to be exact, he is not really my boss. I am not officially reporting to him. However, I still have to try to work with him since is the same department.

He is scared of making decisions, pushing the responsibilites to me and when you help him, you only get a brief thank you from him. Not that I am that type who need praises or compliments from him, but at least he should not claim credit. There are times he claimed my credits and I kept quiet. Cos, I find him pitiful, not because I am weak.

Anyway, enough of these grumbles. Super unhealthy for my bao bao.

Gestational Age: 27 weeks 6 days

Another 85 days, we will see little bao bao... Heehee.. Excited.. But then I not yet buy your baby cot and stroller... Daddy very busy.. we got no time for shopping.. Also I am depriving for sleep.. Been sleeping over this weekend.. I feel like a lazy big fat pig.. Hahaa..

Also, I am like a sweat factory.. Kept on feeling so warm and sweating profusely even if the weather is cooling.. Cannot leave the air con room at all.. My god..

Until now, Hus and I still cannot make up our mind on your name.. But not to worry.. we will try our best to give you the name that will leave you without any critics when you grow up.. I love you baby..

I been reading alot on breast-feeding. And I am determined to take up this. Coming 29th Aug, I am going for a breast-feeding talk. I hope I can learn something and use when you come out and meet me.

My next gynae appt will be coming friday, 21 Aug. We will be able to see you thru ultrasound scan.. So excited!!!!!

Bao Bao recently like dancing in my stomach and I feel more of her at night. She is not much active in the day. My appetite getting bigger. I worried that I will need to shed more than 20kg when I finish labour.

Oh my god....

I feel so like the woman in the comic.. hahaha...

At this moment, listening to Aaron Kwok's song, Ai Qing.. So sweet.. haha.. he is really handsome..

Settled Finally

2009-08-09T02:19:00.002+08:00

Finally the second hand car is settled. We given the car dealer our paper work. I guess I am too sensitive. Last night, Hus gotten all the info from MIL.

Now is time to think of where to earn extra income. Haha.. I am thinking of joining Alan in HSR. He asked me to do tele-marketing. I wonder got time and energy to take up this part-time. I am still considering. God, please give me an indication and show me the light.

Money, please drop from the sky........

Stomach super itchy. I am resisting myself from scratching and am consciously putting lots of stretch mark cream to ease the itch too. I feel so lethagic. Tomorrow I wanna stay at home and "nua" and maybe dinner time going back in-laws' house.

I also been drinking so much sweet drinks. Must cut down and stop the cravings on ice-cream and fast food. Worried that I will gain too much weight and not able to slim down. Now already gaining about 10kg. My god.....

Anyway, baby's movements getting more frequent at nights. Also stronger feeling when I about to sleep. I can just hope and pray that this is just temporary as is disturbing my sleep.

All right, gotta sleep...

Angry

2009-08-07T12:32:00.005+08:00

I just don't understand why and how.

Hus told me his mummy is always not free to sign the papers for the car. But, I just feel is just signing and it will not take much time. We can find a time to go down to her office or go home and let her sign. Or she can even fill in and fax/email us when done. I feel that she is not much willing to sign, I don't know. Is the feeling she is giving me. Made me very "emo"

Hus said that he don't want to make her feel that he only look for her when he needs a favour. Even when she is playing mahjong, attending peoples' funeral, etc, Hus feel that she cannot be disturbed. But, since she already knew that we need her signature, why can't she initiate to meet up with Hus? If I were Hus, I will appear in her office and just get the signature. Perhaps, Hus is busy also. I don't know.

Delaying and dragging... I told Hus to use his own name to purchase. But, he feel that I am throwing temper. The reason why I don't want to drag because is not advisable to put the car with the owner for so long. Who knows what will happen.

Anyway now I heck care. If there is any problems with the car later on also Hus problem. Since he feel that is perfectly normal to drag and take his own sweet time. Let it be.

Updates

2009-08-06T23:38:00.004+08:00

Gestation Age: 26 weeks

Just came back from Orchard. Met up with Chyi,Heng and Silin. My poly mates. Actually been quite a while since we last seen each other. Suddenly, I really miss poly life. Haha.. Anyway, Mushroom Pot at Orchard Point OG quite nice. Can go try it out.

These days I been feeling easily tired and lazy. I just cannot wake up on time to work. Furthermore, I was hit by the common flu bug and till now still feeling sickly. Lucky baby is fine.

Settled on a second hand Mitsubishi Lancer GLX last monday. Was a harsh decision made. Kinda of worried about the monthly installment as it is going to be tight for me and hus pockets. I just hope everything goes well.

Ice Age 3

2009-07-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

Gestational Age: 23 weeks 1 day

Countdown: 17 weeks more!

These days I get tired easily and gaining total of 8kg. I took alots of durians, fast food. Guess really have to cut down all these.

Other than that, not much issues happened for my pregnancy. Baby moving quite frequently. Heehee... And, we are looking out for baby names now..

Updates -

Last Sunday was well spent with my gang. Been so long since we last meet. And, after this gathering, I realized I really missed out so much.

Our iternary that day: -

11am - Outram Park, Red Stars Restaurant for dim sum lunch
*Yummy!! Jason's treat*

1pm - Proceed near to Lucky Chinatown for dessert
*Had snow ice*

2.30pm - Reached Marina Square, buy tickets for movie. (Ice Age 3)

2.30-4.30pm - Spent playing pool, arcade and catch soft toys

5.00pm - Chill out at Starbucks.

6.50pm - Watched Ice Age 3

9pm - Shabu-shabu dinner at Marina Square

Aftermath, to sum up everything, we went durians at Geylang

Only regret? No camera that day. Pictures taken all using handphones. Haha.. If got chance then I will upload.

Sounds fun? Yes, Indeed. Anyway, coming sat we are going Pei's condo. Guess will be another long day again. Heehee.. Looking forward..

Mentally drained~~

2009-07-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

Yes, and I cannot even wake up on time to work. Been exerting myself too much stress. I am so afraid that my mood swings affecting my pregnancy.

Feeling more movements of baby in my stomach. I farted without any control. And I keep feeling tired these days. My god.

Warched Transformers just now. Quite nice show. Worth watching.

Gestional Age: 21 weeks 2 days

Now my appetite is horrenous. And I normally eat more at night because I get to choose my food. Although not choosy, I still go for something I like.

I want to cut down Mac.

Also, having difficulties in sleeping. Strangely, I automatically wake up around 4am for consecutive 2 nights.

Now face breakout getting better.. And hair Is everytime in place.. Something to be happy about.. Finally..

All right.. Time to sleep.. Night..

Moo Moo~~

2009-06-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

Got this moo moo little cow cuddle for you, baobao.. Hope you like it.. It chimes when shaking it.. The touch is soft with such sweet pastel colours.. Got it from Mothercare at $25..

Gestional Age: 20 weeks 4 days

Started using scretch marks cream.. The dark abdomen line not yet appear.. So I am doing the extra precautions to prevent the occurance man.. Haha.. Now tummy getter bigger and I feel more clumsy..

I am having backache after a day work.. Heard from my colleague that the backache is caused by wrong sitting posture and sit too long.. Haiz.. I need to change the sitting position to reduce the pain..

Anyway work is hectic and tiring.. I really dread to wake up for work everyday!!!

Now is durian season, mummy eat durians with your gong gong very often now... I guess you are enjoying it also right? But, I tried to control my intake.. we got to watch my weight and diet.. Durians will make me gain weight..

Baobao.. Let's stop savouring durians ok.. Heehee..

By the way.. I wonder if you can hear mummy singing children songs to you yesterday?? Does I sound funny? Old Macdonalds have a farm... EIEIO~~~ Haha.. I started listening to classic music and children songs.. Hope baby can benefit..

All right.. Shall end.. Good night bao bei..

Dedicating to my precious one

2009-06-13T20:32:00.008+08:00

I am going to start blogging on my pregnancy. Laze for too long. Dedicating this to my precious one. I hope she can read all when she starts to know how to read. Hahaha..

Gestational Age: 18 weeks 5 days

Expected Due Date: Nov, 09 2009

Baby, you are too shy to open legs wide enough for Daddy and Mummy see your gender. But, we are assuming that you are our sweet little princess already. Your little yiyi started buying you pinky stuffs and Daddy also got you some nice clothes from FOX, all in pinkies.

These days, I can feel you kicking me.. Although the feeling is weak, I know you are moving.. You are active during Dr Khi's scanning.. Performing somersaults and showing me your little legs and hands..

Next scan don't be shy ok? Open legs big big for us to take a peek.. Heeheee...

Baby, just to let you know that you have a nice and loving Daddy who shower your Mummy with all his love.. Daddy doing housework automatically, bring drinks to Mummy and give me his concern whenever I feel unwell..

Thank you Hus.

Some scan pictures of you, Baby.. Heehee..

At 6 weeks.. When I first came to know your existence.. The initial meet up with you at Thomson Medical Clinic, ACJ Clinic.. Cannot see you clearly.. You are too small..

But.. Doc said you very healthy.. with good rhythmic heartbeat..

At 11 weeks, Baby waving at us.. Hahaha.. See.. so active..

All right.. I am feeling your kicks again.. Although no cravings.. my appetite did increase.. And.. I gained 3 kg the last visit at Dr Khi's Clinic..

Outbreak of pimples at forehead area.. Till now still the same.. Maybe slightly better now.. Getting wider at my bottom but lucky not much.. At least till now I can still wear my pre-pregnancy pants... I trying not to gain more weight.. Hahaha.. However rather difficult to accomplish since my appetite is quite huge now...

Hope I can return back to pre-pregnancy shape and leaving no scretch marks on tummy.. The top wish I want to have is to have a smooth delivery and not much painful.. Come to think of it.. Is scary.. But no choice.. Is only to pray and have hope..

Anyway.. Iv stayed in the end.. She got an increment too.. Happy for her.. And I hope she is happy with her decision too..

Hungry again..

Leaving for good..

2009-05-28T02:40:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day that she finally resigned.

Deep down in my heart, I felt happy for her. However, I am envious of the freedom n the change of new environment she will be facing in the future. Whether good or bad, is definitely a good start for her.

I asked myself umpteen times why she chose to leave at this period of time. Who gave her such determination to leave for good? Why must it be at this point of time when I hardly can move on like her? Why she strongly remained at her own stand? So many doubts flashing across my mind. But, there is no answer.

Although I heart felt unfair, I can't be selfish after all. Now we r talking of, is her decision, her future and her own life. I did not want to say further to manipulate her.

Now, I can just hope that there is a turn back point. Perhaps boss can do something to change this fact.

God, I wish for miracles to occur.

Mobile Blogging from here.

My top 10 bad habits

2009-03-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

I want to kick off the top ... of bad habits I gained. Hope that I can get rid of them by end of 2009!

1. I don't know since when coke became my necessity. F
rom now on, no more for me.

2. Since I started staying with Hubby, I hardly go bed early. From now on, I shall tuck in by 11pm.

3. I am too lazy to exercise. From now on, I must at least go SP once a week for gym.

4. I wonder since when I started to snack and have late dinners. From now on, no solid food after 9pm.

5. Spending money like nobody business. My savings not growing, except for AIA saving plan. From now on, I will save $300 for each payday.

6. Hot tempered and impatient during work. Everyone seem to pissed me off. From now on, I must control my temper and be more tolerant towards minor issues.

7. Napping for long hours during weekends. So waste of the precious time. From now on, I will stick to normal regime. No more naps!

8. I am not responsive these weeks.

To be continued. I am tired..

Salted Vegetable Duck Soup

2009-03-05T00:57:00.003+08:00

Yummy soup that need slightly more time to cook.

However, get to know that this soup is not suitable for people who suffer 风湿.. Because of the salted vegetables.. Logic behind it.. Salted vegetable is preserved and "cooling"

To counter attack and make it suitable for people with 风湿, cook together with a few pieces of ginger.

Recipe ( Serving for 8)

¹whole duck, chopped
300g salted vegetables, soaked
4-5 tomatoes, cut into pieces
¹packet of tofu, cut
¹Ginger, sliced
8 preserved plums, washed
1-2 litres water

Method:

1) Whole duck brought already cut into pieces by the seller. Remove skin and cut off fats.

2) Soak the salted veg for at least 6 hours after washing.

3) Boil the water before adding ingredients.

4) Put all ingredients except tofu and tomatoes into boiling water. Cook in slow heat for at least 5 hours.

5) Add in tofu and tomatoes 2 hours before serving.

6) Serve with pinch of salt and pepper.

Winter Melon Soup

2009-02-25T14:50:00.001+08:00

Again, with some effort done, I managed to accomplished this, Winter Melon Soup.

Winter melons are a good source of vitamin C and potassium. Its high water content can help people like me, who always drink not enough water to keep hydrated. And, since it is relatively low in calories, it is most suitable for people who is on diet. -> Which is me, especially later KH treating us to dine at Kushin-bo. Heehee..

So, see below for the recipe.

Half winter melon, remove seeds, keeping skin intact
1 carrot, cut into pieces
5-6 spare ribs, blanched
About 1 litre of water
Pinch of salt to taste

Since winter melon taste is almost tasteless, I added the following for more enhanced taste.

By choice: -

100g dried scallops
Few pieces of dried lily bulb
10 pieces of red dates
200g yellow beans

Method: -

1. Put the pot of water to boil.
2. Rinse the spare ribs at least 2 times with boiling water, follow by cold water.
3. Add in all ingredients then simmer for at least 1 hour but not more than 4 hours.

Do not boil too long as the winter melon will be too soft.

Yummy soup ready to serve. I just love soups.

Memories - BBQ at Labrador Park

2009-02-25T11:50:00.000+08:00

Cannot remember when we taken this video and picture. Lucky that I ever blogged on this picture before. Browsing through, it was taken during March 2006 then.

Back then, I remembered Pei asked us to go BBQ at Labrador Park. Once and only BBQ we had at Labrador Park together. The reason why is the once and only time is because there are too much mosquitoes and is too dark.

West Coast Park became our regular spot for BBQ after that. Because the place is brighter and there is Macdonalds too. Most importantly, nearer to where all of us is staying, except for Pei. Heehee...

Video uploaded taken by me. We were all into Army stuffs, because that time, the guys were going about to serve NS. In case you all may want to know who is the commander, is Pei.. Hahaha..

Miss those days man.

How I wish we can turn back time~~~

These days I kept on having mixed feelings. I don't really know why. But I am aware is because of Willie. Although the incidents that happened before were unpleasant, but I think deep inside me, I really cherish our friendship, brother-sister hood.

I always recall back days in school, after our 'O' levels, during poly days and when we just started working. Everything that occurred among us were so memorable because of the fun we once had.

However, now I know we can still be like the past. I see that you are trying hard to heal the superficial wound. And, we are willing to erase off whatever that ever set the obstruction between us.

Cheers to our friendship!

Corn Soup with Red Dates

2009-02-24T14:30:00.001+08:00

Yes, naming this soup as Corn Soup with Red Dates. Is utmost sweetness after a night of boiling in slow cooker. This A-B-C soup is definitely a nutritional meal for at least 2 persons serving. Ideal for small family like me. And, is relatively easy to cook, especially the use of slow cooker. Practically no need to look after at all. Therefore, I call this a 30 minutes recipe.

Here is the recipe. Try it.

5-6 pieces of pork ribs, blanched
2 ears sweet corn, chopped equally size
1 big onion, peeled and cut into quarters
5 small potatoes, peeled
1 regular carrot, chopped equally size
3 fresh tomatoes, cut into halves
10 pieces red dates, washed
Handful of Guo Qi Zhi (wolfberries), washed
1 litre of water
Pinch of salt to taste

Cooking Method: -

1. Boil the water in a big pot.
2. Use hot water to blanch the pork ribs for at least 2 times.
3. Rinse the pork ribs with cold water before adding into the boiling water.
4. Add in corn, onion, carrot, red dates and wolfberries.
5. Boil all ingredients and add in tomatoes before the heat is off.
6. Transfer to slow cooker and simmer for 1 hour or desired.

Ta Dah!!!

Reunited

2009-02-16T00:31:00.003+08:00

The reunion started last Sunday. With my dearest brothers and sisters. He is back once again, but I wonder is temp or perm.

My desktop at office.. Loved this picture the most.. Taken back in 2004.. Our first trip to Genting together..

Met him up 3 times this past week.

First was bowling at Chervons on Sunday..
Second was Sakura dinner on Wednesday..

Haha.. See me in the picture?

Third was bowling again on Friday..

Always it crossed my mind that after the reunion, it will be another long away for him. Maybe because this is not the first time. He always goes missing after a short meet up. And, last contactable is 1 year ago, not taking into account our wedding days he do appear.

Years ago, his ambitious thinking created a barrier between me and him. Because of him, there is a small misunderstanding. And, he left us, leaving this unclear. I was angry that time because he totally ignored both his sisters' feelings. At that sudden, I felt he don't even bother about us.

We did coincidentally saw each other at Jurong Point few times over the years. But, there is no hi and bye. Just a smile. We were like strangers then. Even meet ups, we were not as close as before.

I ever wonder at times whether the 4 of us still remember where and when we decided to be sworn brothers and sisters.. I recalled back vividly.. back at West Coast Park..

Until then 2008 new year countdown, he came together for bowling. The session was fun. We had bowling, countdown and punishment. We threw each other into the swimming pool after the bowling games, wet ourselves and walked from Chervons to Jurong East Entertainment for supper. So fun.. haha..

All these, engraved in my memory. Hope this time his appearance into my life again will be forever.

I love you all..

CNY 2009

2009-02-05T13:23:00.004+08:00

Been busy since eve of Chinese New Year. Went Genting and I lost 3K RM. Blame the Texas Holdem' and Casino Wars. Anyway, damn my bad luck.

Camwhored with family on 大年初一... See my chic Daddy, pretty Mummy, sweetie sisters.. and relatives, the cousins and grandpa.. heehee..

Looked so fat, feel so fat now. Married life made me gain weight. Shit man.

When you feel stagnant at work, ask yourself, "What more you can give to your company?" Everyone always start pondering what they can achieve and gain from their companies, but do they ever wonder what have you given to your company.

Management can give you lower than usual increment, but at least fair enough for lower salary employee, they got the same % as the higher salary ones. I overcame this and made me feel much better.

I told myself that we have to see things at different perspective views. Sometimes, we do have to be flexible to remain happy.

First Post for Year 2009

2009-01-16T12:05:00.007+08:00

And yes, my first post of the year is today, the mid of the week. My god.

Am I that busy?? Indeed, with all the bowling sessions, meet ups, endless work, beauty sleep, spring cleaning and shopping for CNY.. Upcoming Genting Trip with Bluemadrid.. So excited.. Gotta gamble and win some $$ for aftermath shopping at The Highlands.. Wahahahaha.. "Evil Grin"

Apart from those happy events, I was rather moody.. I grieved over my loss of my dearest Iphone.. A week ago, some dirty hand taken my Iphone away from me.. Left me with sorrows and sadness..

I really miss my Iphone.. I find it so not used to it using other phones.. I am totally dependent to my Iphone.. Now I understand why there are so many Apple users around...

I hope it R.I.P.. Whoever stolen it will suffer his/her retribution.. I hope that you will fall down when you take the stairs and your hand will rot and grow fungus....

Yes, all that I wish for will happen.. eventually.. Watch out...

A cute picture to share with you guys. Taken when I was in Taiwan. The cutie puppy is so obedient that it does not leave that position unless been told by its owner. Good training.

p/s: For people who does not know the dialogue means.
It says, "I also got the stress of the sales growth, please come in for a massage."

Hahaha...

Colleagues gathering

2008-12-13T04:07:00.001+08:00

Candid shot!

Feeling emo

2008-12-13T03:58:00.001+08:00

Yes, just back.

Met up with gang for another round of bowling. Tired.....

Went to my CEO house for dinner earlier on. Was kinda of feeling surprised that his house look nicely in place. Haha.. What talking me? Is nicely decorated with decorations brought back from other countries. I should say the souveirs from foreign countries. Anyway, eye opening. Hahaha...

This gathering turned out good. The crowd, food, ambiance, etc were ok except that boss forced me to drink. I took total 6 cans till the end of the session. Hahaha.. I just like drinking.

Also, another exception is I missed "xiao niang re" Sian..........

Boring Saturday

2008-12-07T03:07:00.002+08:00

Today Hubby and I just do "nauing" at home. Nothing more comfortable than home.

Dinner spent at Hubby's family gathering.

Were chatting with his uncle on paper qualifications. Thru d conversation, it made me so much to go UK. But, back to reality, I got no $$.

Really must consider and think it over. Should I go on to get a masters?? Or should I just go ahead with a degree here? Haha...

Feeling bloated..

2008-12-05T08:40:00.001+08:00

I am feeling bloated.
Stomach not feeling right.
Hubby not home yet.
No dinner still.
But, because my stomach bloating, so I don't feel the hunger.

Updates

2008-12-03T23:36:00.005+08:00

Friday

Sales conference turned out to be a fun day for me, as a first timer. Presentation was acceptable, just that I feel I spoke slightly too fast.

Nervous + Not enough time.

Pictures taken that day.

After Sales conference, I met up with Jenny, April & Iren for dinner at Jurong Point Kushin Bo. Food quite nice but I got no much appetite. Maybe the lunch made me too full plus I really got no mood for buffet.

Aftermath, I met up with my bowling kakis. Went bowling at Chervons.

Because of my foul mood during the day due to some conflicts with a colleague +fatigue because slept late previous night, I did not enjoy much for the bowling session. Sorry guys if I do affect your mood.

I know I made you all worried. Sorry again.

Saturday

Woke up around 1 plus. Tired because of the late night bowling.

Prepared to go for the performance at Suntec around 2+.. Bad things happened before leaving the house.........

Hubby threw temper because of his bad day work. He broke the plant outside and made me freaked out. I was at a loss.

He never make such mistakes before. His work is real stressed. I find his mood swings getting serious and sometimes I really cannot get used to it.

Anyway, in the end, I did not go for the drinking session with hubby's friends.
*Cause I am angry*

Sunday

Again I woke up around 1 plus.

Hubby brought lunch for me after his soccer game.

Went KTV session with Jasmine, GY and Nick at Taman Jurong after lunch.

Then, dinner together and bowling again.

This time, I cannot even concentrate while playing. My scores are real lousy that night. I am abnormal, perhaps too tired. I really dont know.

Hahaha... But, we lost again to Mel they all.. Sianz...

Where is my 199 score!!!!!!!

Argh.... !!!!

Finally!

2008-11-28T01:22:00.010+08:00

Finally..

I finished up the slides for tomorrow Sales Conference..

So tired and worn out..

I wonder how will the presentation be like tomorrow.. Lucky mine is after lunch.. so still can see how they present before I speak.. We got to be careful with what we say though.. This is the first time I attending such conference.. boring...

Anyway.. Just had a hearty big feast with Hubby today..
So nice of him to drive me to IMM for the Japanese buffet... He liked that particular restaurant so much.. Guess this is the first time seeing him enjoy fish and fish and fish!!!!

We were so full after that.. What a sinful dinner.. Tomorrow shall not eat so much... Getting FATTER each day... My god.. save me..

Oh ya.. Yesterday dinner at Dilian place was great...... Attendees are Weili, Yichao, Jasmine, GY, Hubby and of course Dilian...

The steamboat done by the girls was a delicacy.. Really enjoyed it very much.. We chatted anything including giving birth.. And in front of the guys.. heehee... Jasmine is real cutie and I do click with her so well.. Hope this kind of gathering will last..

Last Wednesday.. all of us attended the Wedding of JJ and Joey at Parkroyal Hotel.. So happy to see many secondary school mates around to give them the best wishes.. But.. Too bad is... we got no chance to take much pictures..

Because both sis and I did not bring camera..

Managed to ask dear Chap to take these two pics for us by my handphone.. But the image don't look clear... Iphone camera sucks....

Ok.. Now shall look forward to coming sat drinking session with them... heeheee.....

Inspired AGAIN to blog~~~~

2008-11-26T11:05:00.012+08:00

Am inspired again to blog. Down the memory lane, I collected back the days since year 2005. Was browsing through what I wrote then, I feel that I was such a boring person.

Anyway, is also I had been bored recently, I decided to write again.

These days, I started a liking on baking. Tried out Oreo Cheesecake twice and cupcakes last two weekends. It was such fun to bake and make everyone around me to try out. I wanted so much to bake a fruit cake this weekend for hubby. He told me he like best is fruit Sponge Cake. But, I doubt I got the time.
Because coming sat, we got a performance at Suntec City Convention Hall Level 2 in the evening.
Sianz....

Maybe we shall see if Sunday is free to let me try baking the fruit cake since the ingredients are ready for me. **Brought it 2 weeks ago, hahahaha...**

Ok, right now. I shall get back to work and leave the grumbles later. Tonight got steamboat dinner with hubby's friends. But.... without him around..... He not able to attend because of his lesson tonight... Shall see then...

Cousin's wedding dinner at Pan Pacific Hotel

2008-10-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

Wedding dinner

Genting Full Album in Facebook!

2008-07-29T00:56:00.001+08:00

Guys, I uploaded the Genting Trip pictures in my facebook. Refer to the web link below!!!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=139831&l=905b6&id=867970789

My Post for Year 2008

2008-07-25T16:42:00.010+08:00

Hi everybody! Once again, my fingers started typing on and on....... I am back to jotting down my daily happenings AGAIN... Seriously.. I wonder why there is a sudden urge that my fatty fingers wanna some exercise... But, one thing for sure, my memory is fading off day by day........

I want to vent out everything here to make me happier as time goes...... And I wish to find back my passion at work... All of a sudden.. things are so different... I am no longer that superwoman who will give up my time for work anymore...

My Hates

I hate to wake up early in the morning to work..

I hate to sit in front of the computer during office hours...

I hate to be wary on everyone around me.......

I hate to work.....

Argggghhhhh.......

Anyway.. to start with a much relaxed post..... I would like to rattle on my recent Genting Trip with Sis pei, Chap, Eric, Kh and Jian Da..

This is the first time travelling with Chap, Eric and Jian Da.. Nice experience and we enjoyed throughout the whole trip.... So, let the pictures say it all....

Day 1

Some stunts done by Chap & Pei........ Inside Chap & Jian Da Room......

The best bowling team

While waiting for our coffee at Coffeebean..........

We are soooo cute........ fun shots suggested by sis pei......

1+2+3+4

Presenting our sinfully sweet desserts........

Now is 4.39am.... And I am getting tired... I shall post the rest tomorrow....................

大家晚安!

Star Search 2007

2007-09-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

Actually I got no evil intentions to inform that star search blogger on his careless mistakes he made. But, I just find it absolutely absurd when he make errors like compliment Iren as potential threat to Kola but changed to Yah Hwee's name the every next day.

I wonder is that deliberate. I find him being impreceptive when doing his entry for the day. I thought the objective of having that blog in the offiicial site of Star Search is to keep fans update with scenarios which are not captured in the live show? How come all the comments he are so depthless?

Don't tell me you don't even know the contestants' names? Then who are you to judge their ability? You are not the one who can decide which contestant stays in the competition. Be more
magnanimous. They are trying their best to survive, all are extremely good contestants. The stage is cruel and lonely. There will only be one winner. But, no matter what, they got the courage to fulfill their dreams. Who are you to say that they are fake? What so big deal if Kola only cry in front of the camera? Thats definitely not to your concern.

I find that these contestants are awe-inspiring, absolutely awesome. They are already winners. They put up such breaktaking show for the whole Singapore. Be thankful, jerk.

Day 2 + Day 3

2007-09-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

How I spent Day 2 and 3.

Day 2

Went to work as usual.. Took a cab because it was raining heavily.

Got a complaint from regular customer, Sam on floor coating issue. The complaint site was at Enterprise Road which is very near to my company. Boss drove me out around 10 plus and we were caught under the drizzle.

Complaint due to bubbling during the paint application. This is not the first time he complained, as according to the customer. I don't know when he ever complain to me before, but heck la.. He said got then up to him. Customer is always right.

Anyway, the problem is due to our paint issue. Therefore, I got to work on some additives to minimize foaming during application. Another challenge for me to take up.

Went off at 5.35pm sharp and went to my new house. It was the last day of seventh month and we need to burn the papers and send the ghosts back to their original positions. Met up with Jenny and we did the whole praying process together.

After that, I went back to new house alone. Did some clearing up of the place like throwing away the chairs which dear's uncle given. The chairs are super dirty, and furthermore cannot be washed and cleaned up due to fabric material. I cleared up everything myself, good right?

Met up with my colleagues for dinner, Ah Lai and Iv. They meet me up to accompany me for dinner at nearby coffeeshop. I am craving for Xiao Wan Mee.. Hahaha... Yummy..
**No pictures.. **

I went back home and watched telly while waiting for dear's call.

Daddy came back home with his lorry at around 11 plus. Successfully physco him to drive my new house things to his company. We did the moving and really thanks to sis and her boyfriend. Finally, my new house looks better without the junk.

Dear did not call me in the end. He claimed that he was drunk when he called me today.
Angry!

Day 3

I saw how a person can be that ruthless when he want to outshine his master. I finally know the ugly side of this person because the way he did is totally unacceptable. He made things worse by manipulating people's decisions. He used people's kindness to make the person he want to tarnish miserable. I came to realise that everyone cannot be trusted. Once you started to learn what you should, you will try your own means to survive and outshine the person who give you that opportunity to learn from him.

Anyway, I went off from company at around 5 pm to meet up with Jenny and husband, Irene and April. We took quick dinner at Jurong Point Swensens. I took Fish and Chips, one of my favourite dish.

After dinner, we speed to Mediacorp on Chunqiang's new car, Vios. Very spacious, quite nice. But, I prefer Suzuki Swift. We went to support Iren Neo, Contestant F10.

She is good, especially when playing yang qin. I think Mr Lee really did a good job in training her. Very impressive.

Her acting is also fantastic. She is very good at her expressions. I feel that the judges showing too much favoritism. F7 Yah Hwee is good and pretty, but then I just feel that her acting skills not as good as Iren. Anyway, forget it. As long as she is in the contest, she is already the best among all.

Support Her!!!!!

Day 1

2007-09-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

The first day he is not at my side....

Today is Day 1 where dear is in Shanghai... He will be away for 7 days... I started missing him since last night when he left my place.... Although this is not the first time he went overseas, I am still not used to it.

How am I going to spend my lonely 7 days??

Day 1...

Awake at around 10.30am and started watching programs on telly. Watched a few stupid and boring shows at Channel 8 while waiting for my family members to wake up for our late late breakfast. While waiting, I repeatedly reading the messages dear sent me. So heart-warming and making me miss u more.

Went out for the delayed breakfast around 1 plus and taken duck rice at Jurong West Kopithiam. I given them a treat.

After the delicious breakfast, we made our way to Tampines IKEA for shopping. Went to buy 10 cups and 6 glasses, 2 rails for kitchens, one red storage box, mirrors for decorations for my new house. Shall post the pictures later cos these brought items are still inside the car.

Reached Boon Lay around 7 plus to wait for daddy to have his long await hair cut. His hair getting long and tends to curl. Very ugly. haha.. First time tasted 7-11 mashed potato, recommended by bi. Quite nice, the taste definitely better than KFC whipped potato.

After daddy got rid of his irritating curls, we headed back home to take dinner at nearby kopithiam. I was not very hungry, so I shared mee goreng with Bi. Not as yummy as before. Very salty. Yucks.

Went home and be crouch potato for around 1 hour. Then went to new house to clean up. Mopped floor and watched tv for a while. Hehe.. I switched on air con.. So shiok. hahaha....

Finally, now I am here blogging for dear to know how I spent my first day without you by my side. Dear, I will continue to write till Day 7 just for you. Shanghai is a nice place. While working, you must also find sometime to walk around and enjoy the culture there. Take more pictures for me.

Dear, I miss you badly.

Our Love Nest

2007-07-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

First video featuring our little love nest which was left untouched. Plain and low resolution because taken using dear's hp. Although the images are blur blur one, but then still can see the difference between before and after renovation. Haha..

Renovated halfway. More to come!! We been spending quite a sum of money for the platform, feature walls for the dining area so to cover the bomb shelter, TV console & feature wall and our bedroom.. Luckily we go step by step. The heart pain was lessened. Right, dear? Now shall wait for my dad's friend to put up my kitchen table top. How I wish dear's uncle barang barang can be removed. They don't suit my house concept at all! Aiyo, headache. No where to give away all the things he given to us. I think got to look for Karang Guni. Dear, don't blame me. Who don't wish to have a house with everything new? Tell me la........

Anyway, I am quite satisfied except with the contractor stupid attitude. Cannot tahan when they installed the wrong mirror for our bathroom. That mirror from dear's uncle is super duper ugly. I brought one nice one but that contractor made a mistake. So TL man!!! Anyway, there is no point to argue with them. Sian half...

Ok liao la, enjoy the video bah..

I am sick..

2007-07-17T02:27:00.000+08:00

Yes. Am sick.
MC for two days.
Sneezing all the way.
Ahhh Choooo....

Abit worried about work.
But then, since I am sick, I am not recommended to go back.
Yeah, rest well then.
I hardly can breathe.
My nostrils are blocked.

Feeling tired.
Today checked my mail and got a surprise email.
Helen emailed me.
Happy! She wanted me not to worry much about that job.
She dont mind.
Hey... I am happy, elated.

Erm.. Have I not tell you all that my house almost done?
Lights were up and now left with the feature wall, platform and some misc.
Quite satisfied but then just cannot stand that designer from CITY DESIGN!

Take his own sweet time to do my house. At first told me that my house will be done by
end of May.
After some drag, he delayed to End of June. Then, is Start of July. Now, is mid of July.
I am still waiting for his more lame excuses to pacify us. Wau lau.

Abit of dear's fault. Cos he kept on telling that guy that we are not urgent to move in. But then they also cannot like that ma. Already promised us that they will make the house ready to stay by that particular period of time, then must keep promise right? Aiyoh.

I am going to delay his payment. Since he likes to delay so much right, now is the time to make him wait too. Wahaha..

MC tomorrow. Woooo... Can slack at home shake legs.

Indian Wedding

2007-06-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken during wedding dinner attended at Serangoon Gardens Country Club.. My boss wedding reception.. His bride is from India which his parents found for him... Is actually match making.. Quite interesting in this new era..

For me, sure I cannot accept... How to marry someone which you only know him barely a year???

Dinner - South Indian Food, Spicy and fattening...

Boring cos the dinner started at 830pm when invitation card stated to be 7pm sharp. So, that means Indian wedding is the same as Chinese wedding dinner. No one will reach on time. As for us, cos never attended the Indian wedding before, we reached the place before 7pm. We are just trying to make sure we are not late and be rude to enter the ballroom the latest.

Chinese wedding toasting is everyone trying their best to "Yam Seng" to the loudest within one breath.. But then.. Indian wedding toasting only "Cheers"

Chinese brides change at least 2 gowns but then Indian brides only one gown all the way till the end.. Not as tiring as the Chinese brides.... Cos the gowns the Chinese brides changing got to be compatible with different kinds of make up and hair do... So troublesome...

But then I like Chinese wedding more of cos.... Dinner is served for every dish ma.. For Indian.. Is buffet style... Got to queue up patiently to take the food... Some dishes look tempting but then don't taste good due to the spices added.... Yucks...

Anyway... new experience.. Haha...

Money issues

2007-05-31T23:32:00.000+08:00

I wonder why men always take it easy towards $$ while women heart ache when see how men treated $$.. Just list a few and I am sure all women nod their heads and agree silently..

Men will never say no to their blood brothers if they need a loan from them. No matter how much they need, men will not hesitate and will never ask for a return.

Men never take into consideration that the small money they spend on friends during clubbing, sending friends home by cab even though one is at East and one is at West, helping friends to buy food at food court but then no need them to pay are money which can roll into snow balls. The more generous he is, I guess the more poorer he will be.

Men who do not save and tend to spend every single cent of their pay every month are those who cannot be control by their wifes next time. The more the woman nag on how they spend their money, the more they hate the woman. Then these men would find thousands of excuses not to go back to the love nest and stay out on the streets to spend MORE money.

Sometimes, women are more tactful when it comes to money spending. They want to spend every single cent worthwhile.

Ok, fine.

I know men would not spend few hundred or thousand bucks on a prada or LV. They think that the branded stuffs women spend on are more than what they are spending.

Hello men! DO you know that buying the branded bags are sort of investments for the woman? You all are just finding faults!

Women who carry the branded also bring out the feminine and the gracious of them. Men like to bring out these ladies because they add on effect to the man's status and wealth.

See, we did all these because of you all, men!!!!!!

Ok, you may think that we are finding excuses to lust more for branded..... But, why do men still buy for women they love????

Contradictory...

Just wanna make it clear, we nag because we care. The money you spend generously are hard earned. You may think that, " Nah, is nothing what. I can still earn more next month!" But, to the women in this world, you are just throwing the money into the big big sea. No matter what, is better that some money is set aside for emergency. You will never know when you need the money urgently. No point you empty your pockets every month and wait to spend finish every the next month.

Anyway, if the woman stop her nagging, then you know la. The woman going to heck care. Watch out then, the red light which signal danger is blinking. The relationship between you and your woman might be rocky.

Finally

2007-05-31T04:09:00.000+08:00

Finally, the decision was made.

I email Helen that I am staying in Berger. I felt relieved that the decision have already been set. I do not have the courage to leave Berger and start out something new myself. I got no confidence at all to work out something for myself. I staying not because of increment. The only reason I stayed is because I like my job.

Maybe I am foolish to tell everyone that my last day will be friday. I cannot imagine how people will react when they are going to see me on 4th, which is coming Monday. I know is ridiculous to stay but I really want to work with them still. Although the offer given by my prospective employer is also attractive, I rather choose the job which I will feel more job satisfaction. In Berger, the problems that you will come across are all kinds of shit. You will feel extremely proud of yourself when you are able to solve the shit.

Enough said.

Since I email Helen that I am staying means the decision is set. Now I shall have to expect the offer which Berger is going to give..........

Pirates of the Carribean 3

2007-05-27T05:08:00.001+08:00

Pirates! I think Pirates of the Carribean 3 is much cooler than 1 and 2. I enjoyed it the most although their English quite difficult to understand. Most of the time, I am trying to understand by reading the Mandarin subs. But, overall the artwork was the most amazing. The whirlpool, the ship at the edge and the shots whereby the ship sailed through the blocks of iceberg.

Almost the end, of cos the pirates gained their freedom. But, the most stupid thing is why the Lord Beckett did not command his crews to fire? The Endeavour of his would not be burnt if his command was out. Stupid lo..!!!

The best part I like most is the hilarious Jack Sparrow. His actions were funny and crazy. He is the Captain for Black Pearl. He is tricky and always got his own way to escape from danger.

Overall, I think this Part 3 is the best among all. A must watch movie.

**P/S: Good movie companion will make the movie more worth watching.

Fickle minded me

2007-05-23T12:52:00.000+08:00

Leave or not to leave? Till today, I am still in doubt. Not because that Berger giving good offer, but the feeling for not going new company is very strong. I hate being alone. The thought of me to go new company made me feel insecure. However, I guess I am giving stupid and lame excuses. I just do not have the courage to leave even though all kinds of shit things I experienced in Berger.

Nah... Enough of my indecisive character..... I find myself not good at making major decisions.......

Some updates for my love nest...

The air-conditioner installed.. We brought Toshiba with two compressors.. 1 for living and the other for the 3 bedrooms.. Next I guess they are going to build the false ceilings... Cannot wait to see the lights to be installed.. I just simply love the dining room lights... I shall upload the pictures later... The LED lights and the crystal type decor will make the dining room more expensive looking... The place where romantic meals shall be taken for us, the unromantic couple... wahaha..

Yes true.. we are just not romantic.. I dont like diamonds and flowers.. Dear not good at being romantic also.. So we named ourselves as the unromantic type.. We are more to practical ba.. wahahaha..... Last night instead of going dating... we went jogging.. Now.. whole body pain pain.. OUCH! But still.. got a great time.. cos I feeling more energetic and healthy.... More importantly.. Can lose fabs ma.....

Coming saturday meeting gang again.. We be watching Pirates of Carribean.. I remembered that I once commented that this show is boring.. Dear reminded me too.. But still I am going to watch and convince dear I shall appreciate the show more.. Hehe...

Feeling moody... indecisive.... angry...... Tonight swimming with dear at Stadium.....

A minor operation on my toe

2007-05-13T05:28:00.000+08:00

I just had a minor operation which lasted about an hour.. I removed a small part of my toe nail due to my in-growth nail.. Now.. I only left with half of my toe nail.. Sob.. Look very ugly..

I was having this extricating pain two weeks ago on my toe.. At first I thought is just a little cut at the side of my toe nail.. But little did I expect to be an infection!! The nail had actually gone the wrong way while growing and it really hurts when I walk.... I got no choice but to seek doctor...

So.. I went to West-point Hospital at Taman Jurong.. Saw a few Bangladeshi waiting to do their check up I suppose.. My hubby drove me there... and we waited for about 15 minutes for the doctor.... Hubby accompanied me to see the doctor..... He wanted me to remove my nail entirely... I hesitated....

I cannot imagine myself walking without a toe nail what!!!!!

I nearly fainted when the doctor say,
" You got to remove the nail to permanently not have this problem."

I asked the doctor for any alternatives way.. He wanna gave me the painkillers and antibiotics to stop the infection.... I agreed..

But then....

Hubby physco me to do the nail removal operation.. He think that I am avoiding.. and escaping from the fact that removal of nail will still be the result even after taking all the medicines.........

In the end..... I plucked out my utmost courage to enter the operation room...........

In the operation room.. I was asked to lay on the bed... I was shivering with fear.... Then, the doctor wanted me to relax while he going to inject the aesthetics.. The needle that is going into my flesh made me even want to cry..... I cried of course.... cried with pain................. Super pain.. The pain is really indescribable..

After 5 minutes.. the doctor once again confirmed that my whole toe is numb....
The operation started...

Is painful... and you can feel that your nail is tearing out by the doctor........ The aesthetic no use..

I cried throughout.. I just felt pity for my toe..........

Now.. is the third day since the painful experience..

Now as painful.. but then bathing is a nuisance.. Changed the dressing just now... Felt sad... cos I lost half of my toe nail... Very unlucky....... Now cannot wear nice shoes... no pedicure for me.....
Sob...

Leaving

2007-05-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

Do you ever find yourself indecisive at times you going to make a major decision?I am now in a kind of stage whereby no matter what decision I make someone going to get hurt....

I am leaving Berger soon.... A great challenge to leave... I need the courage to leave... The one year 8 months in Berger really made me expose to all kinds of drastic happenings... All kinds of incidents occurring made me grow up... I enjoy the work scope and most people in the company..... I love the challenges I am encountering every single day.....

I cannot bear to leave my dearest colleague.. leaving her in a lurch.. but then I got no choice but to accept the offer given by my ex boss....

She is my benefactor.. Someone who really giving me lots of chances to grow into a better person and make me more valuable in the market now.... I feel grateful that I met her in my career life.. she is someone who value me as her disciple.. I hope to learn more from her.......

I guess no mater what... Leaving for good is a better choice.... This is a good opportunity for me to climb greater heights... Shall await to work in my new laboratory... Bless me!

Here it comes.

2007-05-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

Here it comes.

Updates

2007-05-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

I promised to update bloggie more regularly..
But I did not..
Cos I am just plain lazy..

I miss my friends... I miss the pure friendship....
But.. I guess it will not be as pure as before..

Enough of unhappy entries..

My feet very itchy.....!!!!
Got some kind of mosquitoes bites.. red swollen bumps all over..
Super irritating.... Ouch..!

Last night went out with my colleagues.. Quite a fun gang despite of their age.. lol.. ok la.. although they are 10 years older... they are still young at heart.... funny.... we got a great time singing at Kbox...

I wanna have pictures update... But then I am too impatient to wait for the upload to be done.. lazy.... I find myself more and more lazy... perhaps cos I am just a lazy person... haha... Lame...

K la.. I promise to update regularly.. See yaz..

Boring Weekend!

2007-03-26T00:16:00.000+08:00

Cant imagine.. I spent the whole weekend at home... All I did was bumming around at home...... Oh my god... Anyway.. I was also lazy to go under the sun for all kinds of activities.. hardly got the time to stay at home and spend time with my bed.. lab-top.. vcds.. and tidbits..... i shall not waste any chance on this...

Hubby been working throughout the weekend.. no time for me... I got alot of time to spend... but he got no time for me.. but then never mind la.. work is more important.... I will just bear with it for a moment..

Just read sis blog.. I also got the same feeling.. Nowadays young girls getting mature faster than the past... Once I read the newspaper and saw a news on a 9 year old girl getting pregnant... scary right.. the baby's father was only 13.. I still remember that during our time... the MOE was finding all kinds of ways to educate us on sex education... From what I see in current situation.... the children now know better than us....... I wonder if MOE regret the actions they made.... I doubt so......

Anyway..... I hope to be someone who can control..... Not the one being manipulate.... Anyone can teach???

Wahahahaha..... Dreaming man..

KH Birthday

2007-03-11T04:16:00.000+08:00

A super duper enjoyable gathering today with my dear 5N1 clan.. we gathered to celebrate our 2nd elder birthday in our group, YKH.... Went to Suki Saki Marina Sq for dinner.. A steamboat cum teppanyaki style.. Average food but interesting way of eating ice cream..Our first time ever spent having dinner together for at least 3 hours.. hahaha... we were all busy playing with the ice cream making.. Playing without eating.. Took a couple of pictures.. Shall wait for my sis to upload for your viewing pleasure...

After our hearty dinner.. we strolled our way to boat quay for drinking session... At first.. majority of them declined the offer to drink alcohol.. but then when we initiated the dice games.. everyone just cannot resist the alcohol temptation.. oh yeah.. we are all steady bom pi pi type ok.. so...
everyone started to drink including the birthday boy who dont drink usually... We sang a few songs together, played countless dice gaming rounds and treated alcohol like water until 2am..

Left the pub and waited for dear to come and fetch us all home.. Dear's Kangro drove 7 of us back home except poor roy who got to take the NR back because he stayed at CCk.. Too bad..... Wahahaa.....

When we were sitting at the BK Eating House waiting..... A super disgusting and irritating cockroach came by and clinged to sis's leg... OMG... Sis jumped and screamed... we all got startled..... That dirty fellow... Molester!!!! The most buay tahan is that cockroach flew up onto VL neck..... Yeewww.. Disgusting!!! We left that dirty Kopithiam immediately.. idiotic..

In the end.... Poor us.... got to stand at the bus-stop and wait... shitty...!!!While waiting.. met Josh... Haha.. Long time never see him le....

MMm.. in conclusion.. Enjoyable night with my dear friends.... Right guys?? Shall await patiently for our trip to kukup... I dont know will they all agree to go or shall we find other getaway instead???????

P/S: Thanks dear.. helped to drive all my friends home.. u r the most wonderful.. I love you!

My dream home....

2007-03-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Finally.. we are going to meet up with our interior designer tomorrow evening.. Thats after work.. I am feeling quite excited.. After getting our keys for 3 months... we are now going to start on building up our love nest......

Dear and I started on thinking of a theme for our home....... I think we want to make it cosy and modern right dear? I insisted a platform at the down windows... That would be our cosy area for tea and bean bags corner.... I shall put a tea table with bean bags.... of cos a tea set as a decoration..... hehe.. Shall also have a classic curtains... Thinking of gold colour with shimmering laces as day curtains... wow! Shall go search around.....

Meanwhile got to decide our fridge, washing machine and aircon........ $$$$.... As a paint manufacturer, I shall decide on the colours for the home... I think I going to paint one wall in my entertainment room bright lime green with combination of pink... Of cos kitchen gotta be grey and black..... hehe... modern! dream dream..........

As for living room.. cos we will be having a bright red feature wall at dining area..... got to crack our creativity to blend our living room into the modern style set... Shall discuss with dear..

Actually.. is a nice and loving experience to build a cosy and loving home together with your loved one.. Although sometimes the ideas and opinions might be different.. but then no matter what both of you will eventually come to a decision as to whose idea to follow..... because both are already an item.... There are always room for discussion... I hope the communication between us can be smooth.....

Shall tuck in early... Update again...

A war between us

2007-03-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

I started a war between us..

I was unhappy but then he dont even want to cheer me up.................

Previous blog entries I still mentioned that after marriage nothing changes.. I thought there will be no difference... but then..... I was wrong.... I never crossed my mind this time he dont even bother to explain and make me feel better..... Is it true that after marriage we need to care about each other feelings? Anyway we already signed the papers... there will be no turning back...

Why I feel so lost? I dont know why.... I did nothing wrong.... Why should I deserve this kind of treatment????

Tired..... Lost........

New blogskin again!

2007-02-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

Pink.. Pinko.. Pinky.... Pinkish!!!

Thinking of updating my ROM Pictures.. So I chose a pink blogskin... haha..

Pink = blissful

Someone trying to be funny asked me this today

Roy: Any difference after marriage?

Me: Nothing special, still the same..

Roy: What? Now you cannot circle "Single" when filling forms..

Me: Wa liew...

Roy: When fill in for studies.. pple circle single and you married...

Roy: But I think is funny.. Wahahha..

Me: Drop the topic.. is not funny...

Idiotic... hahaha.. Actually nothing la... really nothing special.. I am still available... So can jio me mahjong, shopping, movies, ktv or just chit chat in coffeeshops.. Drop me sms...

Ok.. Enough of my rubbish...

2007-02-06T09:39:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. Back to blogging again.. Haha.. I been lazing around for quite sometime.. And now I feel ashamed because I abandoned my webby.. So.. I am back again!!!! Wahahaa.... First Entry of Year 2007!!!!!

Since young, I always liked to write.. At all times.. I look forward to my English and Mother Tongue lessons.. Because that is the time to write stories and read.. I started reading those taiwan love novels since Primary 4 and enjoyed suspense story books.. I got memory loss.... Suddenly cannot remember all the auothers' names....

Did you ever realised that as you aged, you will experience memory loss? Alot of things I hardly can remember... I found out that my memory only can stored up to the maximum of three years.. I forgot what I did for the past 20 years... When someone ask me how I met my husband, I can only vaguely mentioned that we met during a China trip.. How we finally get together in details.. I forgotten... ~_~

Anyway.. Beginning of Year 2007 I finally got to announce to everyone that I am now attached legally to Mr Alvin Chow... Hahaha.. I am now officially Mrs Chow... Mmm.. Any changes in my life??? Sort of... As a wife of Mr Chow, I started to learn how to be a considerate and loving wife to him... and solely him.. I noticed myself approaching to AUntie level.. Hahaha.. Started to save $$ for him by eyeing of cheaper stuffs in market, learn some dishes to make him crave for my cooking.. Actually.. there is not much changes between me and him.. Still the same as before.... Hahaha....

Shall Update again... Bleah... :p

Gary Valenciano - How did I know

2006-11-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Listen to the song with the lyrics below.. Nice and beautiful meaning... So touching... Awww...

I remembered so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life has started to change
When i wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

CHORUS

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there is an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

Repeat Chorus

Swollen eye

2006-11-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

I got swollen eye since yesterday night.. My upper and lower eyelids of my left eye swell.. Look like hamburger.. haha.. thats how I illustrate to all when everyone ask.. Mmm.. Doctor said is allergic.. Now.. I ponder to myself.. What am I allergic to?

Although got MC for today.. I went back to office to clear up work in the afternoon.. Now.. I just feel tired and lethargic.. Missing my future hubby who is slogging at work.. He said he wanna earn more OT to make my life better.. I think he is silly... Dear.. all I wish is time to spend with u.. not your money.. we can work things out together.. No need to spend most of your time working.. I prefer you to be with me.. eating steamboat together.. keke... sweet....

I just love steamboat.. yummy..

Just finished watching the korean show.. Princess Hours.. Nice and touching.. the female lead so cute... Everyone who not yet catch a glimpse must watch!

I like this song.. Very sweet love story.. hehehee..

How to make him feel secure?

2006-11-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

At this hour, I hope I can tuck in peacefully to bed. I am feeling real tired living in this world. I see the world as a cruel reality. The stability of financial has to be strong to have everything smoothly flow on. The responsibility that I got to give in to everyone made me feel exhausted. How I wish I can throw all the things here and leave for good. Suddenly, submission to my dreams crossed my mind.

I am someone who needs to fulfill the dreams that I am having now to get my life satisfaction. I hope to gain whatever I should gain. Ever since I got the flat, I knew that the dream of getting my Masters has drifted far. Surprisedly, I am willing to give up the chance of getting my Masters earlier. Because he triggered my deepest emotions. I endured every second and minute whenever someone mention Manchester Uni to me. At that moment, I feel no regrets because he made me feel the most fortunate in this world.

Deep down in my heart, I got that someone who once hurt me. I claimed that I am the victim of the whole incident. But, I just cannot forget the memories he gave to me. To make it clear, this someone gave me sorrow but never ever is love. I was hurt because the friendship between ended without a valid reason. The bond we had was only a month and trust me, there is no love between us. I hope this clarification to you can make you feel more secure. He is not our third party. He is just a passer-by.

I am not a person who is able to make good judgement. I am a naive someone who would trust anyone who treat me nice. My stand is always not strong enough and I believe I am a type who will be manipulated by wicked people. But, very fortunate to have you in my life to save me from falling into evil traps set by them.

No matter what, we need to have a cooling down period. The stress both of us are having made us grasp for more oxygen. The burden we have now weigh more than anything. I hope without me around to disrupt your decisions you could think better. I respect your decision and please forgive the fickle-minded me.

What aday

2006-10-31T12:41:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. What a day... I am so tired.. Need alot of rest.. But then I got no time to rest.. I need more than 24 hours sleep.. I want to get back my beauty sleep....... Regain my youth.. wahahaha...

My marital status going to change to married... OMG... Dear proposed to me in a special and romantic way.. I was extremely surprised.. I never thought that he can be so romantic and daring.. The most touching is his soccer friends helped out the most.. and I really never expect that he got such sporty and steady buddies around.. At least something I never expect.. As for my side.. I was shocked to see sis and bros to come support us... Especially what I know of is they are shy to cameras... They really did something which is over their limits... Really thankful to have them around in my life..

Been busy with the home and ROM... We finally get down to confirm the renovation of our home.. Our wedding bands also settled.. Now got to look for a gown for the ROM and the venue.. Any suggestions guys?

Sian.. What a day!

THe feeling of getting hitched

2006-10-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

I dont feel like getting hitched..
I feel stressed..
I worry alot of things..

I am too tired to think..
I getting more and more bad tempered...
I feel that he does not care much...
I am too busy.. He is also busy..
I got no time to source for info..
I asked him.. he said he will..

I too impatient..
I want things to be done asap..
I want everything to go smooth..
I cannot get what I want...

I was happy when Jenny called saying our home ready to collect keys..
I was disappointed that I did not receive the letter..
I want my keys...
I want my new home...
I cant.. Cos I need the grant..
I need to get the grant done first..
I blame the person to do the grant approval for me..
I never receive any calls from her..

I am unhappy..
I dont want to get married...
I need a break..
ARgh!

3 days MC!

2006-10-06T03:20:00.000+08:00

Tml will be the third day.. I am still thinking whether to go back to work tml.. Actually I am quite ok le.. but then.. when I come to think of even I go back to work my boss is not appreciative enough.. I rather stay at home and get enough rest..

Got a few incidents whereby I got MC.. very sick.. but still pull my weak body to work... because my lab is short-handed.. but he just treat that as it is normal.. I should do it this way.. Sometimes I feel that I got no boss to report to.. cos he dont act as my boss.. I think he is only the boss for the R&D ppl.. he never side us.. and he nv think at our position... Haiz.. But.. he is always speaking up for the R&D.. esp the chemists.. Sometimes I feel that being too responsible and helpful in this department will only make me having too much work in the end...

Now.. I chose to see no devil, hear no devil and speak no devil.. I am not going to be that responsible and being that kaypoh.. what they want to do or decide.. is up to them.. all I want now is to get my work done and wait for a better career advancement...

With this kind of mentality.. I am happier and I got less stress.. I want to draw a clear line between the R&D and QC.. and I dont want to get involve in what they are supposed to do.. cos they will not appreciate your help.. or they might even claim the credits which does not belong to them..

Hahaha.. once I was a fool.... I will not allow myself to continue to act like a fool... Since I dont know is so easy to shoo away the work.. then I must well make I dont know as my favourite line in my English dictionary...

Weecheng very bad.. say I getting fatter.. Must lose weight liao.. Duh..

Dear won a lucky draw..!!! Two tickets for the Singapore Duck tour and a complimentary stay in Fullerton Hotel.. Shiok... Inclusive of 1 complimentary dinner and breakfast... So nice... A short getaway for us again.. Looking forward!

k.. shall end here.. I getting tired... Update more tml...

Quizzes

2006-09-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

You Are a Tomboy

You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets.Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!

How Girlie Are You?

New haircut

2006-09-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

My new hair cut - Side view

Me and my sister - Went hair cut together

A new haircut represents a new image.

A new haircut means that I cut away the some memories I had once. Those memories which supposed to dispose away, but I cannot bear to take away from my life.

Now, I chose to let go. Cos, it became less significant to me. I found out, by coincidence, from friendster.. erm.. he got someone in his life..

Let go means stop browsing his friendster, no more mention anything about him and not going to find out from anyone about him.

No more mentioning his name from now onwards.

Words are easier than action. Haha.

Will my heart follows? I hope this can end. I don't wish to let my thoughts wander anymore.

**In Doubt**

When u guys wanna mahjong, ktv, meals together? I miss my gang.

=::=

Back to work

2006-09-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today back to work. Abit shocked. Alot of things happened. Quite a sudden change.

I saw Julie in Karina's room. Our admin manager resigned. Miss the farewell dinner given by the company. I gotta miss her. Although I did not have direct working relationship with her, overall she gave me a nice impression. I hope she will do well in this new job. Enjoy your holiday! I gotta miss you gal.

Alan is leaving. Just went for a farewell dinner with him. Ever since I entered Berger, he always take extra care for me. Still can remember how he helped me "cover" my mistakes. Haha.. cos when I just got into this job, the company just changed the computer software. Getting hand to it was really tough, lucky to have his patience to wait for me clearing up my work. And furthermore, he as a plant manager really taught me alot, helping me expose to other job scopes of the production department. Got to thank him for his kindness to teach me so much without any return. Hope he will do well in his next job. Jia you!

Came along a few new colleagues. One account executive. Quite a sweet pretty lady and she looks quite nice also. Hope she can get on hand fast with the new system. Cheers. And, an operation executive. He look quite unfriendly but I think should be ok. Shall see further.

Suddenly, our company very quiet. I think alot more to leave, I guess so. Pondering, wondering.

For my department, not much changes. But, today our GM came into our laboratory. He was quite angry cos our department causing a loss in business.

I just don't understand why simple things like following up for the salesperson is so difficult. Is very clearly that the goods got to be sent asap and the batch was passed since friday. But, no one took the initiative to make sure everything is ok before sending. Wait till I come back to clear the mess. And, when the salesperson started asking why the batch till now still nothing was done, one word " I don't know" then just wash his hands off!

Such irresponsible action!

Imagine he been in the company for so long. I really don't know why he could simply pushed the responsible away. And, my "good" superior also another kind. Always help in covering up for that little blackie. I think there is no point in staying in this company when your own boss don't even want to speak up for you. Instead, he pushed all the blame to you even when you are away for a week.

What kind of boss?

I really don't understand why he did these to me. I am the one who always help him. Trying to lessen his job load. But, he never stand in my point of view to think before. Anyway, I am sick and tired of helping. Now, I will just do what I need to do.

FORGET about helping him cos he is unappreciative.

Sickening.

Today Ivy mentioned him to me again. This time, I just smiled at her. Cos, my feeling just died. No matter how he gotta to stir up my emotions, I don't care. He want to sms me or not, I also don't want to bother anymore.

I think he is just playing around with me. Twisting his fingers like how he twisted my feelings. Is just that easy I guess. Cos I trusted him. I think I am stupid, too naive. Trusting people so easy without second thoughts.

My trust, he taken it like a piece of paper. He treated it like rubbish. When he feel that this paper got no worth, he crushed it and threw into the greens.

He can forget it. I am going to treat that I never know this person before. Once, he told me if he want to flirt with this person, he will do it. I think you done it. And you won this game beautifully.

But, I am not going to let you be have me as main lead in your game.

Game over!

Back from Taiwan

2006-09-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Back from Taiwan.. I miss Singapore..

Taiwan got nice but unusual food, fresh air but raining everyday, good attitude customer service and etc. One thing I gotta complain is the place super dirty. Perhaps we got a clean and green environment, thats why I am not used to the untidy environment of Taiwan.

Sway things happened to me. First was I cannot get to sleep with dear in a room. But thats ok, we are not those sticky type. Worst thing is got to sleep with someone who dont know how to take care of herself. Imagine when she come into the room without closing the door, after using the towel ridiculously fold back nicely, hang her clothes anywhere causing the room having a smell, after using the toilet also never flush. Oh My God! A torture!

Second, on the day of our performance, a metal ball of at least 2kg dropped from the top of the stage and landed on my leg! So painful, imagine plus the gravitational force with the weight of the ball....... my thigh got a big blue black man!

Thirdly, raining everyday. Then caused me sick for several days. Now back to Singapore also sick. Jialat.. MC for two days lo. Got to go back to work tml. Sure alot of things to clear. Headache.

Lastly, lost my travel bag where I put all my local products I brought from Taiwan! Sway leh.. All the things I brought cannot give pple liao.. So sad..

Argh..Sway sway sway............ TO be continued!

Unhappy

2006-09-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

Whenever I feel unhappy, I just feel like changing the blogskin. Like this blogskin because of the green and black combination. Quite nice.

I am tired. Why must he sms me at this point of time? I already trying the very best to forget him, but still he sms me at this time. Strange, really wonder the reason behind it. Why he sms me this time? Is he testing me out or just accidentally scrolled to my number and sms me? I wonder. I hope he is not playing tricks on me.

Thursday going Taiwan lo. Quite excited. Looking forward to the trip. Hope will be fun. Yeah!

Going to sleep lo. Got to work tomorrow although I got MC. Haha.. Cos got to clear off all my work before going overseas.

Night.

2006-08-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

Angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Encounter 1

I thought Technical Department should be in charge of formulations.. Enhancing the paint formulations so that the complaints will not come back... Customer will not return with the same complaint.. How come that is not the way? I don't know why we got to clear their shit and they got all the praises from boss......

I am not that petty and wanted all the praises from boss.. but at least when there is something wrong in the formulation.. you got to test and find out how to solve it and make it better... all the solutions they are making are all temporary.. Stupid right? How to work with them?? "Shake head'" Haiz.. I really don't know what to do...... If I solve for them.. that means more work without much appreciation.. They will just take it for granted.. and perhaps laugh behind me.. thinking that at I am the only stupid one who want to work more and pay less.. but then my principle is... I am in charge of quality... I cannot let complaints to come back again... Furthermore.. the most hilarious thing is.... My superior is in charge of ISO1400.. but he heck care quality.. KNS!

Encounter 2

My dad's IRA I did wrongly again... So terrible.. I remembered I got key the income.. how come nv reflect in the Tax return form?? Super fed up... I super cannot tahan... Haiz...

Sian.. fed up..

SUPER FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

Now then I realise I am sux at Injection Moulding machine..

I know zero at this field... wa liew... hate it.. this kind of processing can kill me... Jialat liao.. Tml I gotta be test on this... What should I do!!!!!

Sian man.. Just got a whole day study with my classmates.. Still.. I am hanging nowhere... wahahhahaa.. God.. please help..... !!!!!!!!

Sian sian sian.. Anyone can save me?

2006-08-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yummy IMM Hongkong Cafe

Hello guys.. A place for Hongkong yummy delicious food.....

Went with my parents after my Maths paper just now... Thumbs up!!!! I was too busy tasting the Beef Tenderloin dry noodles till I forgot all about taking pictures... Arbish myself... I must remember next time... whenever I come across good food...

Must try is the Beef noodles which I mentioned just now.. Not to forget the famous yuan yang tea.. their iced type got vanilla ice-cream topping... 1 scoop.. not too much to make you feel sick of it... the serving is just nice to satisfy your sugar craving... hahahaha.. Another nice one is their dessert... the red bean paste with ginko nuts.. Bagus!!!!

Shall meet dear one day to taste the rest.. and not to forget.. pictures too.. wahahhahaa...

Back home.. Resting my brain now.. the maths paper today made my morale down... Super discouraging.. I hope I will do better for the Financial paper and my Processing technology paper... Sian man.. Work hard Sharon...!!!! No "D" I got good records this past one year for the adv dip.. No "D" Please!!! Maths at least a "C" I also happy la... wahahhahaa..

Just got a 15 mins run on the treadmill.... I love the feeling.. when the whole body is sweaty.. I love working out now.. I wonder why.. maybe the feeling of sweaty just make me feel great... Shiok! Wahaha...